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Monday, April 06, 2009
mood: angry
And my cousin and tita told my mum on the phone that i posted bikini pictures online
WTF
AM I A 13 YR OLD KID OR SOMETHING?
OH, COME ON. IM TURNING TWENTY.
It's annoying whenever my dad's around and I can't even cross the street without my dad holding my hand and assisting me. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
ANNOYING!
AND IM NOT STUPID, STUPID.
I didn't post my pictures for the whole world to see. DUH.
WHERE ARE MY SIBLINGS WHEN I NEED THEM? GOD DAMN IT.
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.
THAT'S WHY I AM EAGER TO GRADUATE! I HATE THIS FUCKING LIFE.
FUCKING ONLY CHILD SITUATION.
FUCKING OVERPROTECTIVENESS IT KILLS ME.
And my cousin and tita told my mum on the phone that i posted bikini pictures online
WTF
AM I A 13 YR OLD KID OR SOMETHING?
OH, COME ON. IM TURNING TWENTY.
It's annoying whenever my dad's around and I can't even cross the street without my dad holding my hand and assisting me. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
ANNOYING!
AND IM NOT STUPID, STUPID.
I didn't post my pictures for the whole world to see. DUH.
WHERE ARE MY SIBLINGS WHEN I NEED THEM? GOD DAMN IT.
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.
THAT'S WHY I AM EAGER TO GRADUATE! I HATE THIS FUCKING LIFE.
FUCKING ONLY CHILD SITUATION.
FUCKING OVERPROTECTIVENESS IT KILLS ME.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
mood:enervated
Last monday I went to Letran to watch Anton's capping/pinning and candlelight ceremony. And since i didn't want to wear that ugly yellow, shiny thingy top my mum bought for me, I decided to wear my brown dress which I use at the uninversity. I looked like I was going to my class when i went to Letran :)) So then when I got there it was early enough to hang out with Anton (early meaning I arrived there before Anton did. at around 3:51pm lolz). Their call time was around four pm, but the students arrived at around 5:30 in the afternoon. Typical of Filipinos, of course. Anyway, we did nothing but to walk around the main building. His friends did not arrive early. Ara was the next to arrive with her grandma and cousins, and Virgie arrived with his mum and big sister. And I also saw Carol, Sheila and Anne.
Anne was so cute, she reminded me of Mommy Gisele. In fact, I thought I was waiving at mommy cel. My mind was floating when they passed by, and I was shocked to see that some girls were waving at me and I was like "O_o oh! HIIIII~". So then, when they walked away, Anne came back and said
"Ate Shariz! HIIII~!"
and I was still shocked and so I waved at her and replied "HIIII~"
And then she said "HIIIIIII~" again (complete with the Mommy cel bungisngis)
and then I was like "HIIIII~!" and was nodding and laughing.
Then she went back to her friends.
OOOHHH THAT WAS SO CUTE!
We looked like idiots back there, but it was just so cute..I apologized for not greeting her properly through SMS and promised to talk to her the next time I'll visit Letran.XDD
Anyway, Anton's mum wasn't around so I had to be with him and pretend to be his "Mum" and I was like "O anak, galingan mo ha." and he was like "opo mami. hahaha" and I was telling him "kelan kaya ako nagkaanak noh? 5 months palang ako may anak na ako.sosyal.hahha" and then his gay professor saw him and said
prof: anton yang undershirt mo ha, bakit di v-neck yan?palitan mo yan.
anton: opo..magbibihis nalang po ako
and the professor kept on ranting and then he left. and afterwards Anton was like
anton: hay nako. lagi nalang ako nakikita nun. bakit kapag may decorum ako nalang lagi nakikita.
me: hahahah. baka kasi ikaw lang talaga ganyan.
anton: ewan
me: kras ka nun. bakla kasi .hahhahahahahhaha! KRAS KA NUN! WAHAHAHAHA
and so, we were walking and the photographer took our photo (and i was think, DEAR ME. WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO THIS?) and I also was carrying Anton's huge bag as the gay professor told him not to bring anything with him... and finally the ceremony began.
Well, it was really crappy since the speaker spoke for 45 minutes. And yes, I did check my watch from time to time, sighing and complaining. And oh, tita arrived and we talked. A bit. I WAS REALLY REALLY SHY.
But man, she was sooooo young. And hotttttttttt. For a mum. Compare her to my buddha mum (lol)..well, tita was something.XD She was really nice, but she's not talkative. But we got along pretty well. I didn't feel like I was talking to a mum. She's more of Anton's sister or something ;p Virgie was texting me the whole time, asking me to head towards the stage and curse the speaker and tell him to shut up. And asking how was I doing back there, with "my fufute mum" XDDDD And Anton was looking at the audience from time to time.
It was funny that they even sang at the end of the ceremony. We can barely hear them singing "I believe I can fly". Unfortunately, I left my camera at my grandma's place. And tita also did not bring a camera so we didn't take pictures. Virgie asked Ara to take a couple of pictures after the ceremony.
And while the ceremony was taking place, my mum was waiting for me infront of Letran together with my two little cousins. For 2 and a half hours.XDDDDDDDDDDD
I couldn't help but look at the watch every 5 minutes or so and calculating how long would each part of the cermony would be. The ceremony started at around 5:45pm and ended at around 8:20pm.
After the ceremony, we headed to Jollibee for me to have my supper. I texted Anton and Virgie to hurry so we could sitll see each other and chat. And we did. Well, it took ten years for us to finally reach the cashier. And another ten years for us to have our orders. And the rain suddenly poured. And I was telling them that "hala. papagalitan ako lalo ng mama at daddy ko." and we talked about random things while eating. And I had to eat fast as mymum was texting me (she was in the car with my two sleeping cousins) to leave as it was already 10 in the evening.
Mum couldn't drop Anton and tita to their home was we needed to go home pronto. The good thing was, they didn't scold me for watching the ceremony.
I am hoping I could visit Letran for the second time. XD
Last monday I went to Letran to watch Anton's capping/pinning and candlelight ceremony. And since i didn't want to wear that ugly yellow, shiny thingy top my mum bought for me, I decided to wear my brown dress which I use at the uninversity. I looked like I was going to my class when i went to Letran :)) So then when I got there it was early enough to hang out with Anton (early meaning I arrived there before Anton did. at around 3:51pm lolz). Their call time was around four pm, but the students arrived at around 5:30 in the afternoon. Typical of Filipinos, of course. Anyway, we did nothing but to walk around the main building. His friends did not arrive early. Ara was the next to arrive with her grandma and cousins, and Virgie arrived with his mum and big sister. And I also saw Carol, Sheila and Anne.
Anne was so cute, she reminded me of Mommy Gisele. In fact, I thought I was waiving at mommy cel. My mind was floating when they passed by, and I was shocked to see that some girls were waving at me and I was like "O_o oh! HIIIII~". So then, when they walked away, Anne came back and said
"Ate Shariz! HIIII~!"
and I was still shocked and so I waved at her and replied "HIIII~"
And then she said "HIIIIIII~" again (complete with the Mommy cel bungisngis)
and then I was like "HIIIII~!" and was nodding and laughing.
Then she went back to her friends.
OOOHHH THAT WAS SO CUTE!
We looked like idiots back there, but it was just so cute..I apologized for not greeting her properly through SMS and promised to talk to her the next time I'll visit Letran.XDD
Anyway, Anton's mum wasn't around so I had to be with him and pretend to be his "Mum" and I was like "O anak, galingan mo ha." and he was like "opo mami. hahaha" and I was telling him "kelan kaya ako nagkaanak noh? 5 months palang ako may anak na ako.sosyal.hahha" and then his gay professor saw him and said
prof: anton yang undershirt mo ha, bakit di v-neck yan?palitan mo yan.
anton: opo..magbibihis nalang po ako
and the professor kept on ranting and then he left. and afterwards Anton was like
anton: hay nako. lagi nalang ako nakikita nun. bakit kapag may decorum ako nalang lagi nakikita.
me: hahahah. baka kasi ikaw lang talaga ganyan.
anton: ewan
me: kras ka nun. bakla kasi .hahhahahahahhaha! KRAS KA NUN! WAHAHAHAHA
and so, we were walking and the photographer took our photo (and i was think, DEAR ME. WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO THIS?) and I also was carrying Anton's huge bag as the gay professor told him not to bring anything with him... and finally the ceremony began.
Well, it was really crappy since the speaker spoke for 45 minutes. And yes, I did check my watch from time to time, sighing and complaining. And oh, tita arrived and we talked. A bit. I WAS REALLY REALLY SHY.
But man, she was sooooo young. And hotttttttttt. For a mum. Compare her to my buddha mum (lol)..well, tita was something.XD She was really nice, but she's not talkative. But we got along pretty well. I didn't feel like I was talking to a mum. She's more of Anton's sister or something ;p Virgie was texting me the whole time, asking me to head towards the stage and curse the speaker and tell him to shut up. And asking how was I doing back there, with "my fufute mum" XDDDD And Anton was looking at the audience from time to time.
It was funny that they even sang at the end of the ceremony. We can barely hear them singing "I believe I can fly". Unfortunately, I left my camera at my grandma's place. And tita also did not bring a camera so we didn't take pictures. Virgie asked Ara to take a couple of pictures after the ceremony.
And while the ceremony was taking place, my mum was waiting for me infront of Letran together with my two little cousins. For 2 and a half hours.XDDDDDDDDDDD
I couldn't help but look at the watch every 5 minutes or so and calculating how long would each part of the cermony would be. The ceremony started at around 5:45pm and ended at around 8:20pm.
After the ceremony, we headed to Jollibee for me to have my supper. I texted Anton and Virgie to hurry so we could sitll see each other and chat. And we did. Well, it took ten years for us to finally reach the cashier. And another ten years for us to have our orders. And the rain suddenly poured. And I was telling them that "hala. papagalitan ako lalo ng mama at daddy ko." and we talked about random things while eating. And I had to eat fast as mymum was texting me (she was in the car with my two sleeping cousins) to leave as it was already 10 in the evening.
Mum couldn't drop Anton and tita to their home was we needed to go home pronto. The good thing was, they didn't scold me for watching the ceremony.
I am hoping I could visit Letran for the second time. XD
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
mood: bored
I'm now officially enjoying my summer vacation which will end on the 6th of April ;p (cause i have to enroll for the advanced summer classes on the 7th and go back to manila afterwards. and go to baguio on the 13th grrr.) REGARDLESS OF THAT STUPID SUMMER CLASSES....
Well, apparently, my father changed his plans. We were supposed to go to Puerto Galera this summer, but then my tita and three cousins..and probably an additional three more will be coming along with us. So then my dad was saying it would be okay IFF we're not that many as he will be the one to answer for all of the expenses. So then I have to consider the hugggeee amount of expenses and so we are to go to...ERRRRR..THE NEVER ENDING IBA, ZAMBALES.
Well, I told my mum Zambales is not that pretty anymore. The last time we went there, it felt like an abandoned place..but oh well. At least there's still the beach. I DEFINITELY NEED TO HAVE A TAN. AND TO STAY UDNERWATER FOR MORE THAN TWO MINUTES. MY LUNGS ARE SO WEAK DUE TO THE GOOD FOR NOTHING PLACE OF BAGUIO. I need my waterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I am a mermaid. Not a "taong gubat/bundok" (i like to use that term, so barbaric! haha) ayyyyiiii~
My tita who lives in Iriga wanted us to visit mum's province as it's almost a decade since we last went there. SIGH. I was suggesting that we go to Sorsogon instead so we can swim with the whale sharks (if i dont get scared of it, it's still a shark! OMIGAAAAAD.) but then dad didn't approve of it... Zambales is sooooooooo over for me. My gosh. I just want to go to new places.
Dad also did not approve of us going to Bohol. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHHHH. Annoying. Why spend so much money for ALL of us? It's not like tita has no job or something...OKAY, OKAY. Filipinos have to take care of the visitors, i know...FINE FINE FINE FINE. Sometimes I admire my dad's generosity. Sometimes it kills me.
Lalalala. Oh and btw, i saw my score in my monetary economics. I thought I was gonna flunk. But apparently, i got a 2.75 (hihi. not bad) for not passing the requirements and for not coming to class often. HAHAHAHA. I wonder how my other grades turned out? I'm quite nervous, actually. QUITE=VERY not QUITE=SLIGHT....grrrrrrrr. I really really want to graduate now. But of course..I feel bad that mum and dad bought me a new phone (although it's not that expensive compared to that 25++k phone I got when i was a sophie HS and SOMEBODY STOLE IT FROM ME.) but then it's the thought that counts.
Mum was like "o, ito oh. regalo namin sayo"
me: ano to? bakit, pasko ba?
mum: hindi. naisip lang namin na bigyan ka ng regalo, kasi sabi ng ama mo hindi naman daw nasasayang pera niya pang tuition mo at pangaral mo kasi magaganda naman grades mo
me: *sweatdrop* OMIGAAAAAAAD.I FEEL HORRIBLE. WHY DID YOU SAY THAT? oh no oh no oh no.............................
SWALLOW ME, EARTH.
It was indeed, terrible. I am not worthy to be praised. and i definitely am not worthy to be receving any gift from my parents right now. CROSS MY FINGERS. GOD PLEASE HELP ME. I DONT WANT TO SEE UBER LOW GRADES THIS SEMESTER.....IM SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A WORTHLESS STUDENT..I WONT DO IT AGAIN..DON'T SCARE ME LIKE THIS!*CCRRRRRRRRYYYY*
I'm now officially enjoying my summer vacation which will end on the 6th of April ;p (cause i have to enroll for the advanced summer classes on the 7th and go back to manila afterwards. and go to baguio on the 13th grrr.) REGARDLESS OF THAT STUPID SUMMER CLASSES....
Well, apparently, my father changed his plans. We were supposed to go to Puerto Galera this summer, but then my tita and three cousins..and probably an additional three more will be coming along with us. So then my dad was saying it would be okay IFF we're not that many as he will be the one to answer for all of the expenses. So then I have to consider the hugggeee amount of expenses and so we are to go to...ERRRRR..THE NEVER ENDING IBA, ZAMBALES.
Well, I told my mum Zambales is not that pretty anymore. The last time we went there, it felt like an abandoned place..but oh well. At least there's still the beach. I DEFINITELY NEED TO HAVE A TAN. AND TO STAY UDNERWATER FOR MORE THAN TWO MINUTES. MY LUNGS ARE SO WEAK DUE TO THE GOOD FOR NOTHING PLACE OF BAGUIO. I need my waterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I am a mermaid. Not a "taong gubat/bundok" (i like to use that term, so barbaric! haha) ayyyyiiii~
My tita who lives in Iriga wanted us to visit mum's province as it's almost a decade since we last went there. SIGH. I was suggesting that we go to Sorsogon instead so we can swim with the whale sharks (if i dont get scared of it, it's still a shark! OMIGAAAAAD.) but then dad didn't approve of it... Zambales is sooooooooo over for me. My gosh. I just want to go to new places.
Dad also did not approve of us going to Bohol. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHHHH. Annoying. Why spend so much money for ALL of us? It's not like tita has no job or something...OKAY, OKAY. Filipinos have to take care of the visitors, i know...FINE FINE FINE FINE. Sometimes I admire my dad's generosity. Sometimes it kills me.
Lalalala. Oh and btw, i saw my score in my monetary economics. I thought I was gonna flunk. But apparently, i got a 2.75 (hihi. not bad) for not passing the requirements and for not coming to class often. HAHAHAHA. I wonder how my other grades turned out? I'm quite nervous, actually. QUITE=VERY not QUITE=SLIGHT....grrrrrrrr. I really really want to graduate now. But of course..I feel bad that mum and dad bought me a new phone (although it's not that expensive compared to that 25++k phone I got when i was a sophie HS and SOMEBODY STOLE IT FROM ME.) but then it's the thought that counts.
Mum was like "o, ito oh. regalo namin sayo"
me: ano to? bakit, pasko ba?
mum: hindi. naisip lang namin na bigyan ka ng regalo, kasi sabi ng ama mo hindi naman daw nasasayang pera niya pang tuition mo at pangaral mo kasi magaganda naman grades mo
me: *sweatdrop* OMIGAAAAAAAD.I FEEL HORRIBLE. WHY DID YOU SAY THAT? oh no oh no oh no.............................
SWALLOW ME, EARTH.
It was indeed, terrible. I am not worthy to be praised. and i definitely am not worthy to be receving any gift from my parents right now. CROSS MY FINGERS. GOD PLEASE HELP ME. I DONT WANT TO SEE UBER LOW GRADES THIS SEMESTER.....IM SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A WORTHLESS STUDENT..I WONT DO IT AGAIN..DON'T SCARE ME LIKE THIS!*CCRRRRRRRRYYYY*
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
mood: victorious
listening to: the show - lenka
Anton said he felt kind of sickly yesterday, and he couldn't text me the whole day as he was busy with their tour in Makati. He told me how his body would complain due to unplanned events such as what happened yesterday. And now I figured, it's not possible that he be like that when he'll finally be my official fiance to the eyes of my parents as we lurrrvvvvv going around the Philippines at random times.
Dad said (and I think he is very nationalistic, in a way.lol) why go to other places when the home country offers just too much of a beauty..or something like that. I agree with his argument, of course. But I was just wondering why he's wasting so much to tourist spots here in the country...most of the time we go to tourist places just so we can tour our relatives around. We've been there for like a kazillion times (Subic most especially..NOT TO MENTION BAGUIO.RAAAR). It wouldn't hurt if we try to go abroad, right?
He never let me go with him abroad when I was a little girl, as he kept on reminding me to study first before doing other things. It's just a shame that he has world visa and he's not very fond of other places. And the reason is food. LOL. He can't seem to appreciate european AND AMERICAN food. So then, he just wants to stay here in the country. Enough of ranting about my father. Going back to Anton...well, I'm still thinking. He'll die if he eats seafood, and my family thrives on seafood. Especially when we're having a vacation at the beach. And yeah, the randomness in the family might complicate Anton's health as he told me.
The thought of it excites me. Once I graduate, he can go with us if we're going to other places. When I was younger, I didn't mind being alone with my parents during vacations since they tag my cousins along with us. But of course, my cousins now are also growing up and we have conflicting schedules. Hence, sometimes I'm alone (the only kid, that is) when we're out of town or so. Which is really sad. Sometimes I wish my siblings didn't die. Wished they didn't leave me. AND DEAR HEAVENS, MY DEAD SIBLINGS, WHY DIDN'T YOU CLING TO OUR MOTHER'S WOMB AS MUCH AS I DID? You losers.
Kidding.:D Please don't visit me this evening. Im so busy. ;P
HAH. I feel like I won a war or something.:)) Apparently, my Political Philosophy classmates (I'm the only junior in the class, they're all seniors. well technically, I'm already a senior) have not started with the last paper so when I went to the library (and was very eager to be there), the books were still there. Hopefully, I'll be able to do my paper tonight. WELL. If I'm not going to be lazy, that is. I'm not in the mood to think and move much as I want to go home.
MUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOME!
I also felt accomplished a while ago, since my monetary economics instructor said the paper we did for the second exam was excellent.:] YAAAAY~ And I thought I can no longer make up for the deficits in my grades. HIHI.
I think I'm going to paint once I arrive in Laguna.
It's been a year since I last painted something.
I miss painting.
And also, I have to learn new piano pieces. OOPS. I think it's not possible that I do that this vacation.
What else?
Oh. Dad said he's planning to pick me up at the airport on saturday so I can go home to Manila in an hour. Yeah, I'll most probably take the helicopter again. >_> ....what a shame. NOTE TO SELF: DONT EAT BREAKFAST ON SATURDAY. But there are complications that I need to address as MJ (my partner for the political behavior paper) is unavailable this week and hence, we are unable to finish the paper. SO. Oh. BUT. BUT. I want to go home..:S
SUMMER TIME, SUMMER TIME!
TAN TAN TAN TAN. Lalalalala.
LALALALALALA.:]
I'm so excited! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~
I'm also excited for my bestfriend's graduation!!!!!!!~
NAJMAH DINGCONG! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! SEE YOU SOON! MISS YOU!LOVE YOU!
oh I just want to see my loved ones again!
ANTON!
MAMA!
DADA!
DAPHNE!
KENJI!
KIMY!
CHIBI!
GAYGAY!
SHINCHAN!
YUKI!
I'm hyper. And I don't even know why. :D:D:D WEEE~
listening to: the show - lenka
Anton said he felt kind of sickly yesterday, and he couldn't text me the whole day as he was busy with their tour in Makati. He told me how his body would complain due to unplanned events such as what happened yesterday. And now I figured, it's not possible that he be like that when he'll finally be my official fiance to the eyes of my parents as we lurrrvvvvv going around the Philippines at random times.
Dad said (and I think he is very nationalistic, in a way.lol) why go to other places when the home country offers just too much of a beauty..or something like that. I agree with his argument, of course. But I was just wondering why he's wasting so much to tourist spots here in the country...most of the time we go to tourist places just so we can tour our relatives around. We've been there for like a kazillion times (Subic most especially..NOT TO MENTION BAGUIO.RAAAR). It wouldn't hurt if we try to go abroad, right?
He never let me go with him abroad when I was a little girl, as he kept on reminding me to study first before doing other things. It's just a shame that he has world visa and he's not very fond of other places. And the reason is food. LOL. He can't seem to appreciate european AND AMERICAN food. So then, he just wants to stay here in the country. Enough of ranting about my father. Going back to Anton...well, I'm still thinking. He'll die if he eats seafood, and my family thrives on seafood. Especially when we're having a vacation at the beach. And yeah, the randomness in the family might complicate Anton's health as he told me.
The thought of it excites me. Once I graduate, he can go with us if we're going to other places. When I was younger, I didn't mind being alone with my parents during vacations since they tag my cousins along with us. But of course, my cousins now are also growing up and we have conflicting schedules. Hence, sometimes I'm alone (the only kid, that is) when we're out of town or so. Which is really sad. Sometimes I wish my siblings didn't die. Wished they didn't leave me. AND DEAR HEAVENS, MY DEAD SIBLINGS, WHY DIDN'T YOU CLING TO OUR MOTHER'S WOMB AS MUCH AS I DID? You losers.
Kidding.:D Please don't visit me this evening. Im so busy. ;P
HAH. I feel like I won a war or something.:)) Apparently, my Political Philosophy classmates (I'm the only junior in the class, they're all seniors. well technically, I'm already a senior) have not started with the last paper so when I went to the library (and was very eager to be there), the books were still there. Hopefully, I'll be able to do my paper tonight. WELL. If I'm not going to be lazy, that is. I'm not in the mood to think and move much as I want to go home.
MUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOMEMUSTGOHOME!
I also felt accomplished a while ago, since my monetary economics instructor said the paper we did for the second exam was excellent.:] YAAAAY~ And I thought I can no longer make up for the deficits in my grades. HIHI.
I think I'm going to paint once I arrive in Laguna.
It's been a year since I last painted something.
I miss painting.
And also, I have to learn new piano pieces. OOPS. I think it's not possible that I do that this vacation.
What else?
Oh. Dad said he's planning to pick me up at the airport on saturday so I can go home to Manila in an hour. Yeah, I'll most probably take the helicopter again. >_> ....what a shame. NOTE TO SELF: DONT EAT BREAKFAST ON SATURDAY. But there are complications that I need to address as MJ (my partner for the political behavior paper) is unavailable this week and hence, we are unable to finish the paper. SO. Oh. BUT. BUT. I want to go home..:S
SUMMER TIME, SUMMER TIME!
TAN TAN TAN TAN. Lalalalala.
LALALALALALA.:]
I'm so excited! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~
I'm also excited for my bestfriend's graduation!!!!!!!~
NAJMAH DINGCONG! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! SEE YOU SOON! MISS YOU!LOVE YOU!
oh I just want to see my loved ones again!
ANTON!
MAMA!
DADA!
DAPHNE!
KENJI!
KIMY!
CHIBI!
GAYGAY!
SHINCHAN!
YUKI!
I'm hyper. And I don't even know why. :D:D:D WEEE~Tuesday, March 10, 2009
mood: mixed emotions..no really.
listening to: never gonna say goodbye-jojo
First, I'd like to thank Anton and MJ for helping me with my thesis proposal. Yesterday was our defense and yet I didn't feel embarassed, vulnerable or downhearted by Professor Cruz' comments. I was in fact happy it turned out that way, I mean me defending my qualitative proposal to the quantitative proposal session (I ended up there because of SOMEONE GAH.) But yeah, now I know what to do. And I'm so glad I didn't end up defending my paper to the OTHER instructor. RRAAAAR.
So now, I have two finals on friday (Political Behavior and Monetary Economics), three papers next week monday (Political Philosophy, Thesis Proposal final output, Political Behavior) which I am planning to finish this friday [hopefully!] so I can go home AT LAST to laguna on saturday lunch time (I still have my investment management class D:)
I feel so tired and exhausted already and the hell week's just starting.:( But I have to get through with this so I can go home........
I can't wait to be with Anton again!
Lately, we've been pondering about things..How we miss being together..him walking me to the university and back to my boarding house..Anton waiting for me outside of my class..Anton hanging out with me at Sm..us eating together at random restaurants even if we're broke..us laughing and just chatting..the little-est things we used to do.
He even said the other night, how he misses courting me and how (*laugh*) he misses me bullying him. LOLZ. Awwww, my hunny bunny. I love you just too much.<3 Feels like I'm falling in love for the very first time...
listening to: never gonna say goodbye-jojo
First, I'd like to thank Anton and MJ for helping me with my thesis proposal. Yesterday was our defense and yet I didn't feel embarassed, vulnerable or downhearted by Professor Cruz' comments. I was in fact happy it turned out that way, I mean me defending my qualitative proposal to the quantitative proposal session (I ended up there because of SOMEONE GAH.) But yeah, now I know what to do. And I'm so glad I didn't end up defending my paper to the OTHER instructor. RRAAAAR.
So now, I have two finals on friday (Political Behavior and Monetary Economics), three papers next week monday (Political Philosophy, Thesis Proposal final output, Political Behavior) which I am planning to finish this friday [hopefully!] so I can go home AT LAST to laguna on saturday lunch time (I still have my investment management class D:)
I feel so tired and exhausted already and the hell week's just starting.:( But I have to get through with this so I can go home........
I can't wait to be with Anton again!
Lately, we've been pondering about things..How we miss being together..him walking me to the university and back to my boarding house..Anton waiting for me outside of my class..Anton hanging out with me at Sm..us eating together at random restaurants even if we're broke..us laughing and just chatting..the little-est things we used to do.
He even said the other night, how he misses courting me and how (*laugh*) he misses me bullying him. LOLZ. Awwww, my hunny bunny. I love you just too much.<3 Feels like I'm falling in love for the very first time...
Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
And now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me
Waited patiently for someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be
No more lonely, no more just me
I've been there before
Ain't goin no more
And now that you're here I
Never wanna say goodbye love
Never wanna be without you
No more cryin, no denyin'
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here I
I never wanna say goodbye love
VERSE 2:
Now it's time for me
To find out what the first time love could mean
Little scared but its cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (So real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
So I'm standin here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby I know things change
And there might be some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love baby
So let's make it last forever
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
And now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me
Waited patiently for someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be
No more lonely, no more just me
I've been there before
Ain't goin no more
And now that you're here I
Never wanna say goodbye love
Never wanna be without you
No more cryin, no denyin'
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here I
I never wanna say goodbye love
VERSE 2:
Now it's time for me
To find out what the first time love could mean
Little scared but its cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (So real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
So I'm standin here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby I know things change
And there might be some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love baby
So let's make it last forever
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
mood: exhausted
As much as I am trying not to be a coffee addict [AGAIN]..i just can't stop drinking the grande everytime. I'm getting used to the elitist crew of the Baguio Starbucks, but am still complaining why the fuck is their interior design so lame. It's so ugggleh. Well anyway, today my laptop screwed up and I am panicking as my second paper in ancient and medieval political philosophy is due by tomorrow. AND AND AND I'm not yet done with my paper...AND I couldn' t find my professor a while ago [although i waited in vain for an hour or so] so I can't tell him I my problem...so I don't know if tomorrow will be such a nice day.
Actually, I'm feeling kind of lose in a sense that I'm starting to feel like I'm graduating. BLLLEEEHHHHHH. I'm cutting classes and not thinking about my requirements like so much and...I don't know..I just want to go home and have fun. AND GET MY DIPLOMA. PLEASE.
Wil's celebrating her 20th birthday today! We went to eat merienda and we saw this thingy audition for the Survivor second season and we were laughing at the people...it's just too lame. suck-y.
MJ was insisting that I audition for the PBB Teen edition.
WTF.
NO WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Well, aside from the fact the Direk Dyogi is my distant relative, well I can get in without having to audition but! I'm not into the fame thing, really. I'm happy to be me and I need not the fame to help me survive in this freakin' world. WELL.
It's troubling me why whales are starting to disturbing the fishermen communities in the Philippines (in Bataan and Romblon)..and I feel sorry for the poor little animals :( well, not literally as they're not really little, /heh but then..SIGH.
I WISH I HAVE THE POWER TO HELP THEM.
I DONT KNOW.
I DONT WANT TO SEE THEMS SUFFERING.
THERE'S A VERY BIG PLACE IN MY HEART THAT BEATS FOR THE ANIMALS.
It's like, if I see a pig murdered (butchered, of course) and a person murdered (murdered murdered, of course.lolz), I'd ignore the human and pity the pig.:( I DON'T LIKE SEEING PEOPLE HURTING MY POOR ANIMALS!
What else?
Oh. Uhm... mama bought me three new dresses last week. Dad bought me this tube-ish undergarment for my two dresses and I'm not so comfortable with it..really. I'm not into girly girly stuff. LOLZ But okay, as promised I will be. little by lit
As much as I am trying not to be a coffee addict [AGAIN]..i just can't stop drinking the grande everytime. I'm getting used to the elitist crew of the Baguio Starbucks, but am still complaining why the fuck is their interior design so lame. It's so ugggleh. Well anyway, today my laptop screwed up and I am panicking as my second paper in ancient and medieval political philosophy is due by tomorrow. AND AND AND I'm not yet done with my paper...AND I couldn' t find my professor a while ago [although i waited in vain for an hour or so] so I can't tell him I my problem...so I don't know if tomorrow will be such a nice day.
Actually, I'm feeling kind of lose in a sense that I'm starting to feel like I'm graduating. BLLLEEEHHHHHH. I'm cutting classes and not thinking about my requirements like so much and...I don't know..I just want to go home and have fun. AND GET MY DIPLOMA. PLEASE.
Wil's celebrating her 20th birthday today! We went to eat merienda and we saw this thingy audition for the Survivor second season and we were laughing at the people...it's just too lame. suck-y.
MJ was insisting that I audition for the PBB Teen edition.
WTF.
NO WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Well, aside from the fact the Direk Dyogi is my distant relative, well I can get in without having to audition but! I'm not into the fame thing, really. I'm happy to be me and I need not the fame to help me survive in this freakin' world. WELL.
It's troubling me why whales are starting to disturbing the fishermen communities in the Philippines (in Bataan and Romblon)..and I feel sorry for the poor little animals :( well, not literally as they're not really little, /heh but then..SIGH.
I WISH I HAVE THE POWER TO HELP THEM.
I DONT KNOW.
I DONT WANT TO SEE THEMS SUFFERING.
THERE'S A VERY BIG PLACE IN MY HEART THAT BEATS FOR THE ANIMALS.
It's like, if I see a pig murdered (butchered, of course) and a person murdered (murdered murdered, of course.lolz), I'd ignore the human and pity the pig.:( I DON'T LIKE SEEING PEOPLE HURTING MY POOR ANIMALS!
What else?
Oh. Uhm... mama bought me three new dresses last week. Dad bought me this tube-ish undergarment for my two dresses and I'm not so comfortable with it..really. I'm not into girly girly stuff. LOLZ But okay, as promised I will be. little by lit
Thursday, February 26, 2009
mood: excited
I can't believe February's almost over. It's been a busy month, but I enjoyed it. I got over crying over my thesis proposal, and I'd like to do my best to pass all the requirements before the end of the semester, of course. I just want to see my home again. My living room. My attic. my pets. mum's living room. the master's bedroom. my old room. the kitchen. the bathroom. the garage. my dad's chickens. the street. everything. i miss waking up after lunch and watching TV the whole day and not worrying about anything.
And, Anton promised to visit me when I get home, and I'll also try to visit Letran if possible.:] My internet connection was busted for almost a month. So I couldn't post anything for a while.
Oh, Anton made me play Valkyrie [RO] so I have something to do, to distract me. I think it's not a very nice thing to do while studying..Not that I'm an addict or so. But I like watching people. Sometimes I find myself [my character] sitting on one place and watching other characters and when i'm "lucky" i get to talk to them as well.
I want to go home. I. want. to. go. home.
I want to eat tons of food again. And try adjusting with the climate.
Panagbenga festival this saturday, yes. I think my parents and tita will visit me here and see the floats. But I'm not so sure.... i hope so. I'm dying to eat good food again. :S
Gosh, I'm craving for pasta and pizza. It's been a month of torture.:(:(:(
I live on bread. well sort of bread. Since i'm trying to save money. heeeeeeeeeeeee
I can't believe February's almost over. It's been a busy month, but I enjoyed it. I got over crying over my thesis proposal, and I'd like to do my best to pass all the requirements before the end of the semester, of course. I just want to see my home again. My living room. My attic. my pets. mum's living room. the master's bedroom. my old room. the kitchen. the bathroom. the garage. my dad's chickens. the street. everything. i miss waking up after lunch and watching TV the whole day and not worrying about anything.
And, Anton promised to visit me when I get home, and I'll also try to visit Letran if possible.:] My internet connection was busted for almost a month. So I couldn't post anything for a while.
Oh, Anton made me play Valkyrie [RO] so I have something to do, to distract me. I think it's not a very nice thing to do while studying..Not that I'm an addict or so. But I like watching people. Sometimes I find myself [my character] sitting on one place and watching other characters and when i'm "lucky" i get to talk to them as well.
I want to go home. I. want. to. go. home.
I want to eat tons of food again. And try adjusting with the climate.
Panagbenga festival this saturday, yes. I think my parents and tita will visit me here and see the floats. But I'm not so sure.... i hope so. I'm dying to eat good food again. :S
Gosh, I'm craving for pasta and pizza. It's been a month of torture.:(:(:(
I live on bread. well sort of bread. Since i'm trying to save money. heeeeeeeeeeeee
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Anton wasn't around yesterday but it doesn't mean that we both didn't enjoy the 14th day of February. We actually did. Although the only thing we could do was to text each other. And think about everything we've been through. He was kind of pissed off when he found out that his globe account got busted yesterday, hence i couldn't receive his messages and he ran out of credit. Haha, that was very crappy. But then before I went to sleep, he texted me something.
Happy Valentines to the girl that made me feel special,
to the girl that gave meaning to my life,
to the girl that made me cry so many times,
in happy times and in bad..
to the girl that already became a woman by heart,
to the girl that i'm going to be with throughout time,
to the girl i love the most,
and the only one i'll ever love..
i'll keep loving you, til my last breath.
you're the best *insert here* in the world, shariz
i love you so much
and i'd continue loving you just the same
even if we are far, even in bad times
and even as we grow old and worn out..
It might not sound nice to you, but it did make me cry. OMIGOSH i'm crying again. I didn't know what to tell him afterwards. It was just really unfair that I wasn't beside him last night so I could hug him and whisper how much I love him. AWWW.MAN.
*hold. I need to wipe my tears*
I'm just really happy I met him. Every single detail in the past that brought me to him. It's unbelievable how we got to know each other. And how we fell for each other. And how we are to this day.
I feel so complete (ay echos, centrum?) now that he's by my side. I need not worry about anything in this world. (naman, ang cheezy ko)
If it is still puzzling for you guys that we are to marry, well...It's something very farfetched before for us also. But as of now, it's something that we know will happen soon. Something that is similar to you expecting yourself going to the university and graduating a terwards. It is not a very long time. Three years have passed and we are still together. Spending the rest of my life with him won't be enough. I think if it's possible that we are still alive for five centuries it would still be such a short time.
Most people desperately roam the earth in search for their true love.
I'm blessed I have found mine.
Je t'aime mon cheri.
*hold. I need to wipe my tears*
I'm just really happy I met him. Every single detail in the past that brought me to him. It's unbelievable how we got to know each other. And how we fell for each other. And how we are to this day.
I feel so complete (ay echos, centrum?) now that he's by my side. I need not worry about anything in this world. (naman, ang cheezy ko)
If it is still puzzling for you guys that we are to marry, well...It's something very farfetched before for us also. But as of now, it's something that we know will happen soon. Something that is similar to you expecting yourself going to the university and graduating a terwards. It is not a very long time. Three years have passed and we are still together. Spending the rest of my life with him won't be enough. I think if it's possible that we are still alive for five centuries it would still be such a short time.
Most people desperately roam the earth in search for their true love.
I'm blessed I have found mine.
Je t'aime mon cheri.
Sunday, February 01, 2009
mood: lax
Oh, I'm just so suprised to know that I won't be so busy this week. I hope.:] Anyway, On the 9th and 11th of February, I will be performing with Ms. Rosellini Mamaclay (Moki) with the following songs:
Also on the 11th, I will be managing this debate thingy in the university. Well, I still have a lot to think about since I'm not originall the person in charge and the task was just passed to me by our very unproductive org leader ;p HIHI. I don't know what will happen, but I'm not going to prioritize it since a student just asked me to do it for her. LOL
it's not like the piano playing where my Professor in International Politics and the adviser of the org asked me to perform. LOL And it was so funny cause the first time he announced it, he said I was going to play the violin. HOW I WISH I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE VIOLIN.LOL They say I look like a violinist. But no, I'm just a simple piano player.hihi :]
As usual, I will be playing the piano. Make that the KEYBOARDS since we can't use the auditorium's piano.:S Anyway...dad, mum and my little cousin Patis went here yesterday and I was so relieved to see them. Mama fixed my room and found out my room was tidy. She also bought a new matress cause the matress I used in my room before was an old one and my landlady hasn't bought a new one, so Mum thought of buying me a new one so I can sleep properly. Also, my cousin got sick so then she woke up thrice last night and threw up and cried all the time. Dad basically didn't have much sleep and he was laughing at me cause I was sleeping like a vampire in the morning and I didn't even wake up when my cousin was crying like a hell. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
What can I say? It's so niiiiiiiiiiiceee to finally have a very long time to sleep and rest after not being able to do so for the past two weeks. :]
Lalalala. At least my dad bought my old keyboards with me, I won't be having some difficulty rehearsing. I actually know some of the songs already since I've been playing it since HS..I'll just have to relearn it. HEE.
And yeah, Siska Bardyn, another Belgian person who's going to have her OJT/intership here in the Philippines arrived last 28th of January. And finally I have someone to talk to. Apparently, she likes my company and she talks a lot when I'm around. Most of the time she would text me and ask me if I'll be visiting her cause I think the people where she's staying now are not really intellectually talkative.LOL Or something. HAHAHAH.>:]
February will be a very busy month, I can tell. But in a good way.
I hope I won't be dropping any subjects, too! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ My gosh. One sem to go and I'm done! I can't wait!
Oh, I'm just so suprised to know that I won't be so busy this week. I hope.:] Anyway, On the 9th and 11th of February, I will be performing with Ms. Rosellini Mamaclay (Moki) with the following songs:
Feb9~ Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis, Love Story by Taylor Swift and I think we'll be performing If I'm no in love with You.
Feb11~ My Immortal by Evanescence, Only Hope by Mandy Moore and I forgot the last song.hihi
Feb11~ My Immortal by Evanescence, Only Hope by Mandy Moore and I forgot the last song.hihi
Also on the 11th, I will be managing this debate thingy in the university. Well, I still have a lot to think about since I'm not originall the person in charge and the task was just passed to me by our very unproductive org leader ;p HIHI. I don't know what will happen, but I'm not going to prioritize it since a student just asked me to do it for her. LOL
it's not like the piano playing where my Professor in International Politics and the adviser of the org asked me to perform. LOL And it was so funny cause the first time he announced it, he said I was going to play the violin. HOW I WISH I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE VIOLIN.LOL They say I look like a violinist. But no, I'm just a simple piano player.hihi :]
As usual, I will be playing the piano. Make that the KEYBOARDS since we can't use the auditorium's piano.:S Anyway...dad, mum and my little cousin Patis went here yesterday and I was so relieved to see them. Mama fixed my room and found out my room was tidy. She also bought a new matress cause the matress I used in my room before was an old one and my landlady hasn't bought a new one, so Mum thought of buying me a new one so I can sleep properly. Also, my cousin got sick so then she woke up thrice last night and threw up and cried all the time. Dad basically didn't have much sleep and he was laughing at me cause I was sleeping like a vampire in the morning and I didn't even wake up when my cousin was crying like a hell. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
What can I say? It's so niiiiiiiiiiiceee to finally have a very long time to sleep and rest after not being able to do so for the past two weeks. :]
Lalalala. At least my dad bought my old keyboards with me, I won't be having some difficulty rehearsing. I actually know some of the songs already since I've been playing it since HS..I'll just have to relearn it. HEE.
And yeah, Siska Bardyn, another Belgian person who's going to have her OJT/intership here in the Philippines arrived last 28th of January. And finally I have someone to talk to. Apparently, she likes my company and she talks a lot when I'm around. Most of the time she would text me and ask me if I'll be visiting her cause I think the people where she's staying now are not really intellectually talkative.LOL Or something. HAHAHAH.>:]
February will be a very busy month, I can tell. But in a good way.
I hope I won't be dropping any subjects, too! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ My gosh. One sem to go and I'm done! I can't wait!
Monday, January 26, 2009
mood: extremely tired, not in the mood, pissed off, VERY PESSIMISTIC
God damn that thesis proposal. I am so freaking tired and drained already! I also was disappointed and furious after hearing that Anton could not visit yesterdays since he got sick and his allergy was triggered and blah blah blah. So annoying, this unjustly world I am in! Never in my entire life did I cry over a STUPID SUBJECT. DAMN IT. I now am wondering why I even allowed my father to make me take up a course I NEVER EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THOUGHT OF TAKING. BY HEAVENS, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ECONOMICS IN UP BAGUIO? It's so different in UP diliman...I'd rather take economics in diliman and compute all day than trying to figure out the theoretical framework of economics and even apply it to the formulas! YES! FORMULAS NEED THE THEORETICAL FRAMEWORK IN ORDER TO FUNCTION WELL, HENCE OUR COURSE WHICH...apparently economics used to be a course focused more on COMPUTATION, NOT THEORETICAL ANALYSIS.
Heavens, it's like taking economics+philosophy (but less fun!) +political science all at the same time! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
Well of course, I'm ranting. BUT BUT BUT BUT.
I just don't understand this situation I am in.
And I don't even have something to look forward to at the end of these HORRIBLE, WRONG TURNS. MY.HEAVENS.
Oh so. Anyway, I'm very busy right now, so..............................................
HAH.
MY COUSIN MATET DID NOT PASS THE UPCAT.
MWAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :))
I'm so evil. >:D
God damn that thesis proposal. I am so freaking tired and drained already! I also was disappointed and furious after hearing that Anton could not visit yesterdays since he got sick and his allergy was triggered and blah blah blah. So annoying, this unjustly world I am in! Never in my entire life did I cry over a STUPID SUBJECT. DAMN IT. I now am wondering why I even allowed my father to make me take up a course I NEVER EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THOUGHT OF TAKING. BY HEAVENS, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ECONOMICS IN UP BAGUIO? It's so different in UP diliman...I'd rather take economics in diliman and compute all day than trying to figure out the theoretical framework of economics and even apply it to the formulas! YES! FORMULAS NEED THE THEORETICAL FRAMEWORK IN ORDER TO FUNCTION WELL, HENCE OUR COURSE WHICH...apparently economics used to be a course focused more on COMPUTATION, NOT THEORETICAL ANALYSIS.
Heavens, it's like taking economics+philosophy (but less fun!) +political science all at the same time! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
Well of course, I'm ranting. BUT BUT BUT BUT.
I just don't understand this situation I am in.
And I don't even have something to look forward to at the end of these HORRIBLE, WRONG TURNS. MY.HEAVENS.
Oh so. Anyway, I'm very busy right now, so..............................................
HAH.
MY COUSIN MATET DID NOT PASS THE UPCAT.
MWAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :))
I'm so evil. >:D
Monday, January 19, 2009
mood: sickly but optimistic :]
I went to the lab today. Well, went too early so I dropped by the univeristy library for three hours before I went back to the lab. It was so funny cause the doctor and his assistant thought I was a foreigner since I never said a filipino word. And I kept on talking to the doctor and he was really nice, it was the first time I encountered a male doctor for my check-up. It was kind of awkward, especially when he asked if it was okay that he placed the stethoscope inside my shirt.>_> But then I said it was okay, since he's a doctor. Well, apparently these are the things he told me:
1. I have chronic tonsilitis/pharyngitis
2. that's why i have to stay awya from cold stuff. but I can take in sweet stuff as long as i drink plenty of water afterwards.
3. I have allergic rhinitis ever since AND I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE. LOL
4. that's why I get tonsilitis very easily + cold stuff
5. he thought I was a nursing student cause I know a lot of anatomy stuff.LOL
6. He said my heart rate was not normal, mine was 90 and the normal rate ranges from 60-80
7. I have an appointment next monday to check if my condition improved and also to check my heart again.
8. If ever my heart gets pretty crappy again, I'll be undergoing a test to see if i have Rheumatic Heart Disease [OH MY!]
9. He asked me if I get tired easily and I said yes...so he really needs to check my heart the next time.
10. I need not worry since we have to start from scratch and he'll observe my improvement, not to mention he needs to take care of my allergy.
And here are the things I told him:
1. It was the four seasons smoothie's FAULT!LOL
2. This kind of sickness has always been my problem ever since I was a little kid
3. Maybe my allergy's connected to my dad's weak lungs and I inherited some of his weak genes..i'm not sure.LOL
4. I'm not a nursing student but my dream was to be a neurologist..but then my father wants me to be a lawyer so I have no choice.
5. So having that kind of rate is a bad thing??????????????OH MY.
6. I get tired very easily. Most of the time I find it hard to breath especially when I'm coughing
7. WAIT. I HAVE TO TAKE AUGMENTIN..........AGAIN?!
He was telling me why didn't I pursue taking med as my course..and I told him I have no choice..and also, I told him I'm not from Baguio and I'm just studying here in UPB and he asked me why I chose this campus and was even teasing me whether my boyfriend's here..and I said NO NO NO NO..Actually, he's in Los Banos..and he's not really my boyfriend YET cause I'm not supposed to have a boyfriend right now.hehehe. And he looked at me and told me "Okay..well, I'm not your father so I won't get mad. As long as I'm not your father you can tell me things." And I was laughing.XDDDDD OOPS.
It's fun talking to people like doctors and judges..they know a lot of stuff and I learn from them.:] I'm not usually talkative to people of my generation...TRALALALALALALALALA.
I don't know. I know I should feel down right now but I'm not. :] I know I'll get well, I have to! And the things I have to do this week can't make me feel down too! Maybe it's because I'm looking forward for sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:] YEAH, THAT'S PROBABLY IT.
So there. BRING IT ON, BUCKO! I'll conquer everything just to see my prince! YAYYYY~
I went to the lab today. Well, went too early so I dropped by the univeristy library for three hours before I went back to the lab. It was so funny cause the doctor and his assistant thought I was a foreigner since I never said a filipino word. And I kept on talking to the doctor and he was really nice, it was the first time I encountered a male doctor for my check-up. It was kind of awkward, especially when he asked if it was okay that he placed the stethoscope inside my shirt.>_> But then I said it was okay, since he's a doctor. Well, apparently these are the things he told me:
1. I have chronic tonsilitis/pharyngitis
2. that's why i have to stay awya from cold stuff. but I can take in sweet stuff as long as i drink plenty of water afterwards.
3. I have allergic rhinitis ever since AND I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE. LOL
4. that's why I get tonsilitis very easily + cold stuff
5. he thought I was a nursing student cause I know a lot of anatomy stuff.LOL
6. He said my heart rate was not normal, mine was 90 and the normal rate ranges from 60-80
7. I have an appointment next monday to check if my condition improved and also to check my heart again.
8. If ever my heart gets pretty crappy again, I'll be undergoing a test to see if i have Rheumatic Heart Disease [OH MY!]
9. He asked me if I get tired easily and I said yes...so he really needs to check my heart the next time.
10. I need not worry since we have to start from scratch and he'll observe my improvement, not to mention he needs to take care of my allergy.
And here are the things I told him:
1. It was the four seasons smoothie's FAULT!LOL
2. This kind of sickness has always been my problem ever since I was a little kid
3. Maybe my allergy's connected to my dad's weak lungs and I inherited some of his weak genes..i'm not sure.LOL
4. I'm not a nursing student but my dream was to be a neurologist..but then my father wants me to be a lawyer so I have no choice.
5. So having that kind of rate is a bad thing??????????????OH MY.
6. I get tired very easily. Most of the time I find it hard to breath especially when I'm coughing
7. WAIT. I HAVE TO TAKE AUGMENTIN..........AGAIN?!
He was telling me why didn't I pursue taking med as my course..and I told him I have no choice..and also, I told him I'm not from Baguio and I'm just studying here in UPB and he asked me why I chose this campus and was even teasing me whether my boyfriend's here..and I said NO NO NO NO..Actually, he's in Los Banos..and he's not really my boyfriend YET cause I'm not supposed to have a boyfriend right now.hehehe. And he looked at me and told me "Okay..well, I'm not your father so I won't get mad. As long as I'm not your father you can tell me things." And I was laughing.XDDDDD OOPS.
It's fun talking to people like doctors and judges..they know a lot of stuff and I learn from them.:] I'm not usually talkative to people of my generation...TRALALALALALALALALA.
I don't know. I know I should feel down right now but I'm not. :] I know I'll get well, I have to! And the things I have to do this week can't make me feel down too! Maybe it's because I'm looking forward for sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:] YEAH, THAT'S PROBABLY IT.
So there. BRING IT ON, BUCKO! I'll conquer everything just to see my prince! YAYYYY~
Saturday, January 17, 2009
mood: very excited
But first! I have to do my thesis proposal..which basically talks about the kyoto protocol..And damn it I can't change my topic cause the deadline's on Wednesday..and my research problem about "Should Baguio focus more on the tourism sector or educational sector for economic development?" or something like that...I don't know.LOL It was kind of a good idea..AND MY DAD WHO ARRIVED FOUR HOURS LATE JUST MADE ME REALIZE HOTEL INDUSTRY AND TERTIARY SCHOOLS BOTH END UP ATTRACTING TOURISTS, CONSIDERING STUDENTS WHO ARE NOT FROM BAGUIO ARE LOCAL TOURISTS. DANG. But then I'm sticking with the kyoto protocol issue since it's the first problem I presented....sigh. This is not going to be a good sight. I might look like an anti-environmentalist if I prove that the Kyoto Protocol did nothing good regarding the economic development of industrialized countries and hence, it is not apt to be pursued beyond 2012 for the developing countries. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG.
When is he when I need him?
THERE. UP IN THE SKY, LIKE A LOST SUPERMAN. But not really lost. He's better when navigating the skies, not the land. Said it's pretty much different driving a car and a helicopter/plane. I always tell him he's the only pilot I know who gets lost. Hah, speaking of pilot...isn't it fun when people ask me what's my dada's job and I tell them, "my father's just a driver..sniff..." heeeeeeee:3 OOOOOOOHHH ANYWAY...
So!After my thesis comes my Political behavior exam..which I think is pretty easy and I just have to read the assigned readings and memorize a bit...and then to revise my A- paper in Medieval Political Philosophy...HAH. And I thought I was going to have a C. LOL Turns out, even if I'm the only junior student in this senior class..I'M DOING OKAY.:] And I'm starting to love Professor Ali, too. He makes me laugh out loud now..compared to the first month when he used to make me frown and contradict what I say.:| And I have to pass my Chapter 1 of the thesis on friday...and the chapter 2 on the next friday...and the final output on Investment Management regarding the fall of the Big 3 on saturday. Enough of the rants.
I have to finish everything within the week. Since I have to give my sunday and monday to..heeeeeeeeeeeee :3 I'm so excited! I don't know what to do..I don't really think we can go someplace else as Baguio's such a little city..but then, I just want to be with him!So maybe we'll do some karaoke and photoshoot and...uhm, walk around the mall like we used to?
Whatever..off I go to sleep now!:]
But first! I have to do my thesis proposal..which basically talks about the kyoto protocol..And damn it I can't change my topic cause the deadline's on Wednesday..and my research problem about "Should Baguio focus more on the tourism sector or educational sector for economic development?" or something like that...I don't know.LOL It was kind of a good idea..AND MY DAD WHO ARRIVED FOUR HOURS LATE JUST MADE ME REALIZE HOTEL INDUSTRY AND TERTIARY SCHOOLS BOTH END UP ATTRACTING TOURISTS, CONSIDERING STUDENTS WHO ARE NOT FROM BAGUIO ARE LOCAL TOURISTS. DANG. But then I'm sticking with the kyoto protocol issue since it's the first problem I presented....sigh. This is not going to be a good sight. I might look like an anti-environmentalist if I prove that the Kyoto Protocol did nothing good regarding the economic development of industrialized countries and hence, it is not apt to be pursued beyond 2012 for the developing countries. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG.
When is he when I need him?
THERE. UP IN THE SKY, LIKE A LOST SUPERMAN. But not really lost. He's better when navigating the skies, not the land. Said it's pretty much different driving a car and a helicopter/plane. I always tell him he's the only pilot I know who gets lost. Hah, speaking of pilot...isn't it fun when people ask me what's my dada's job and I tell them, "my father's just a driver..sniff..." heeeeeeee:3 OOOOOOOHHH ANYWAY...
So!After my thesis comes my Political behavior exam..which I think is pretty easy and I just have to read the assigned readings and memorize a bit...and then to revise my A- paper in Medieval Political Philosophy...HAH. And I thought I was going to have a C. LOL Turns out, even if I'm the only junior student in this senior class..I'M DOING OKAY.:] And I'm starting to love Professor Ali, too. He makes me laugh out loud now..compared to the first month when he used to make me frown and contradict what I say.:| And I have to pass my Chapter 1 of the thesis on friday...and the chapter 2 on the next friday...and the final output on Investment Management regarding the fall of the Big 3 on saturday. Enough of the rants.
I have to finish everything within the week. Since I have to give my sunday and monday to..heeeeeeeeeeeee :3 I'm so excited! I don't know what to do..I don't really think we can go someplace else as Baguio's such a little city..but then, I just want to be with him!So maybe we'll do some karaoke and photoshoot and...uhm, walk around the mall like we used to?
Whatever..off I go to sleep now!:]
Friday, January 16, 2009
mood: still tired. toxic. but optimistic
..That this hell month shall soon pass and I'll conquer everything!LOL. Gosh. I got my econ 121 exam results and I passed... HAHAHAHA! Pass meaning I got the passing score BLEH ;P Anyway...I was asking Pat where to find good ukay stuff since I'm not really good at it..and then she gave me some tips and..I don't know. Maybe I'll try it next week, when if not busy! I forgot to buy mittens, bonnets and scarves last year...so I'm definitely going to buy myself those this time! And I'm not going to whine while walking down session road either. *gulp* I HOPE.
Whatever the case, I'll teach myself how to knit.HEHEHEHEHE. I hope I'll learn how, since I'm uber busy these days. DEAR HEAVENS please I don't want to go through a lot of things this month..I'm soooooooooo not in the mood to move and think much because of the temperature.
Anyway, happy knitting to me! I'll try to buy the materials tomorrow..I'm not really good at doing household girly girly chores...I only know how to plant..not to stitch whatsoever...except cooking fo course!Well anyway..I'm just talking nonesense again..I should probably go to sleep now.
Nanyt :]
..That this hell month shall soon pass and I'll conquer everything!LOL. Gosh. I got my econ 121 exam results and I passed... HAHAHAHA! Pass meaning I got the passing score BLEH ;P Anyway...I was asking Pat where to find good ukay stuff since I'm not really good at it..and then she gave me some tips and..I don't know. Maybe I'll try it next week, when if not busy! I forgot to buy mittens, bonnets and scarves last year...so I'm definitely going to buy myself those this time! And I'm not going to whine while walking down session road either. *gulp* I HOPE.
Whatever the case, I'll teach myself how to knit.HEHEHEHEHE. I hope I'll learn how, since I'm uber busy these days. DEAR HEAVENS please I don't want to go through a lot of things this month..I'm soooooooooo not in the mood to move and think much because of the temperature.
Anyway, happy knitting to me! I'll try to buy the materials tomorrow..I'm not really good at doing household girly girly chores...I only know how to plant..not to stitch whatsoever...except cooking fo course!Well anyway..I'm just talking nonesense again..I should probably go to sleep now.
Nanyt :]
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
mood: wasted, distressed and frozen
First stop: weather forecast. Average Temperature ranges from 9C-12C this week.[Baguio] Lowest is 8C on thursday or so and BEYONDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! Expect the sun to shine and the rain to visit by afternoon throughout this week for people currently in Baguio. Uhm, I don't think I have to say this as Baguio's weather is pretty much similar to London...although London of course is worse than this place when it comes to that matter..but well, I'm just saying. I got that from PAGASA...since dad assigned me to be his weatherforecaster for the week AGAIN...I think he'll be visiting me this weekend if he has a flight schedule. YAY!~
Oh I am feeling much like a human being now. Being the ice princess for so long..I just realized I started to feel the icy wind of Baguio ever since Anton hugged me! No, seriously. I'm not talking sensual here..but the warmth I felt from him when he hugs me..it's a different kind of warmth that makes you feel so relaxed, safe and loved.:] Much like the feeling you get when you have a sauna.:] Speaking of sauna..I haven't dropped by a spa for months! My body's aching like hell..and not to mention my brain is suffering from hemorrhage due to my econometrics class!
last stop!
DEAR HEAVENS. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo regretting that I allowed my father to make me take an economics course! TOTAL, FREAKING HEMORRHAGE COURTESY OF PROFESSOR MENDOZA'S ECONOMETRICS CLASS! This is freaking not happening. SOOOOOOOOOOO NOT HAPPENING! THIS IS MORE THAN JUST YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE! IT'S LIKE............THE NIGHTMARE OF THE NIGHTMARE OF THE DOOMEST DOOM or whatever I just made it up you know that.
I can't put into words how I see econometrics!It's the worst thing I've ever encountered so far as economics is concerned! GOSH. Help me God. I do not deserve this kind of torture. i should be taking up Medicine, happily experimenting with blood and sucking other people's blood to quench my thirst---I mean, taking out blood samples and helping other people cure their ailments..http://ayabarnette.multiply.com/swt.
WELL, ANYWAY. REALITY CHECK=IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD-Sir Ali Ciencia.
Oh. I suddenly remembered a quote from Sir Ali!
EHEM..
First stop: weather forecast. Average Temperature ranges from 9C-12C this week.[Baguio] Lowest is 8C on thursday or so and BEYONDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! Expect the sun to shine and the rain to visit by afternoon throughout this week for people currently in Baguio. Uhm, I don't think I have to say this as Baguio's weather is pretty much similar to London...although London of course is worse than this place when it comes to that matter..but well, I'm just saying. I got that from PAGASA...since dad assigned me to be his weatherforecaster for the week AGAIN...I think he'll be visiting me this weekend if he has a flight schedule. YAY!~
Oh I am feeling much like a human being now. Being the ice princess for so long..I just realized I started to feel the icy wind of Baguio ever since Anton hugged me! No, seriously. I'm not talking sensual here..but the warmth I felt from him when he hugs me..it's a different kind of warmth that makes you feel so relaxed, safe and loved.:] Much like the feeling you get when you have a sauna.:] Speaking of sauna..I haven't dropped by a spa for months! My body's aching like hell..and not to mention my brain is suffering from hemorrhage due to my econometrics class!
last stop!
DEAR HEAVENS. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo regretting that I allowed my father to make me take an economics course! TOTAL, FREAKING HEMORRHAGE COURTESY OF PROFESSOR MENDOZA'S ECONOMETRICS CLASS! This is freaking not happening. SOOOOOOOOOOO NOT HAPPENING! THIS IS MORE THAN JUST YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE! IT'S LIKE............THE NIGHTMARE OF THE NIGHTMARE OF THE DOOMEST DOOM or whatever I just made it up you know that.
I can't put into words how I see econometrics!It's the worst thing I've ever encountered so far as economics is concerned! GOSH. Help me God. I do not deserve this kind of torture. i should be taking up Medicine, happily experimenting with blood and sucking other people's blood to quench my thirst---I mean, taking out blood samples and helping other people cure their ailments..http://ayabarnette.multiply.com/swt.
WELL, ANYWAY. REALITY CHECK=IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD-Sir Ali Ciencia.
Oh. I suddenly remembered a quote from Sir Ali!
EHEM..
"Kapag magpapakamatay ka, humanap ka naman na mataas na building. Yung tipong nasa ere ka palang namatay ka na sa heart attack. Masmaganda kasing ganto 'aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh' sabay 'BOG' kesa 'BOG' sabay 'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh' "
-Professor Ali Ciencia, when he talked about one very intelligent person who commited suicide just because he was heartbroken. note that this person jumped off the building at 8am and died at 11am, suffering for three hours. POOR GUY.Monday, January 12, 2009
Dear Alumna,
Pax!
Happy New Year! I am very glad to contact you today because the Guidance and Counseling Office is trying to organize the very first Alumni Homecoming. We wish to invite you on that special day which will be held on the SSCW Family Day come February.
I know you are very busy with your studies and all, but I have a special request. Attached herewith is a mini-survey form for you to accomplish. You may download it, answer it and e-mail it back to me. OR you may contact me or Ms Sheila in the contact details indicated at the form and we shall get back to you and you may answer it over the phone. Any way that is convenient for you, we shall meet it.
I shall hope for your favorable response. You may send a text message to me anytime. We are very excited to meet you again! Thank you very much and God bless you always.
Sincerely,
Mary Grace Cajucom School Counselor
St. Scholastica’s College- Westgrove
Ayala Westgrove Heights , Silang, Cavite
Guidance and Counseling Office
January 6, 2009
Dear Alumna,
Peace!
We, at St. Scholastica’s College-Westgrove, are planning to hold the very first SSC-W Alumni Homecoming come February 8, 2008 which will coincide with the annual SSC-W Family Day. A joint program (games and sports activities) will be held with you as our welcome and gratitude for your visit.
In connection with this, we would like to know how we can continue our service to you our beloved alumna. Kindly answer the following questions by placing a check (√) mark in the box before the item.
Which of the following services would you like SSC-W to continue giving you?
¨ recollections
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¨ providing opportunities to share your time, talent and treasures
¨ providing venue for your on-the-job training
¨ assisting you in doing your surveys and feasibility studies
Which of the following would best facilitate communication with you?
¨ a small office at the SSCW High School Department
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For more details you may call Ms. Grace Cajucom or Ms. Sheila Ricalde at 046-5110421 local 115 or text 09198831321/09277319515. You may also e-mail us at mgcajucom@yahoo.com or sheilaricalde@yahoo.com. We are looking forward to meeting you again. Thank you and God bless you!
Thursday, January 08, 2009
mood: wasted
Okay, this is a non-cheezy blog entry.
AHEM. It's the first week of January classes and I'm freakin' dizzy I don't know what to do with myself. I've got tons of exams and requirements to pass. So many things to do, so little time! Oh, and not to mention I AM NOT GETTING ANYTHING FROM MY ECONOMETRICS CLASS. I mean, come on. WTF is with the formulas and us not applying it.*sob* Ma'am Mendoza wants us to know the formulas by heart, to predict what will happen if variable X is negative and stuff like that. Oh yeah, those derivatives and more calculus things I already forgot since I took it back in summer 2007! That was like, a kazillion years ago..>_>
Anyway, good thing is, Anton went to the university now!It's the start of their classes, "lucky" for him. And he texted me, too. That was suprising. But of course, I won't be complaining..duh.
And uh, Anton's visiting on the second week of Feb, I'M SO EXCITED! WEEE~ I miss him already! I can't wait to see him with me here again!I just hope my parents won't be visiting that week too...so. Uhm.
And, uhmm...what else? I can't wait to go home. We saw the schedule a while ago and it says there: "END OF CLASSES MARCH 13, START OF SUMMER CLASSES APRIL 14"
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~ I've got a longer time to relax>:3 I can't wait to go home.
I CAN'T WAIT TO BE HOME AGAIN.TRALALALALALALA.~
Oh, and apparently I have some kind of physical problem right now. I'm still thinking whether I'll visit the doctor for a check up or not. HMMM. Maybe tomorrow? Ohhh, but that means I'm going to spend extra money again and I feel bad for getting sick :(
Well anyway...ever since Dad gave me that "OK" signal regarding Anton and him courting me...I just want to finally meet his family and relatives too! I mean...I'm really really shy but..I really do want to meet them..and hope that they'd like me.T_T I'm so scared.
Okay, this is a non-cheezy blog entry.
AHEM. It's the first week of January classes and I'm freakin' dizzy I don't know what to do with myself. I've got tons of exams and requirements to pass. So many things to do, so little time! Oh, and not to mention I AM NOT GETTING ANYTHING FROM MY ECONOMETRICS CLASS. I mean, come on. WTF is with the formulas and us not applying it.*sob* Ma'am Mendoza wants us to know the formulas by heart, to predict what will happen if variable X is negative and stuff like that. Oh yeah, those derivatives and more calculus things I already forgot since I took it back in summer 2007! That was like, a kazillion years ago..>_>
Anyway, good thing is, Anton went to the university now!It's the start of their classes, "lucky" for him. And he texted me, too. That was suprising. But of course, I won't be complaining..duh.
And uh, Anton's visiting on the second week of Feb, I'M SO EXCITED! WEEE~ I miss him already! I can't wait to see him with me here again!I just hope my parents won't be visiting that week too...so. Uhm.
And, uhmm...what else? I can't wait to go home. We saw the schedule a while ago and it says there: "END OF CLASSES MARCH 13, START OF SUMMER CLASSES APRIL 14"
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~ I've got a longer time to relax>:3 I can't wait to go home.
I CAN'T WAIT TO BE HOME AGAIN.TRALALALALALALA.~
Oh, and apparently I have some kind of physical problem right now. I'm still thinking whether I'll visit the doctor for a check up or not. HMMM. Maybe tomorrow? Ohhh, but that means I'm going to spend extra money again and I feel bad for getting sick :(
Well anyway...ever since Dad gave me that "OK" signal regarding Anton and him courting me...I just want to finally meet his family and relatives too! I mean...I'm really really shy but..I really do want to meet them..and hope that they'd like me.T_T I'm so scared.
As promised ;p cheezy blogs to follow starts here:
Closed off from love I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe
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Yeah, this is already a song from long ago...summer 2008? Hee. I like expressing myself with words and music so...I find songs appropriate for it.:] So then I remember the time, back in HS when I fell in love with a non-existent guy named "Josh" or "Shiren" and well, you know the story.;p But seriously, it was okay. I mean, me falling in love back in HS (call that love, it's just an obsession!)..and me being a stupid and naive little girl back then..it somehow is a splendid thing to thank for. I was telling Anton I'm a hopeless romantic. That when I start to love something, I'll do anything for whatever or whoever it is. And unfortunately I saw a puppet and it was a bitter-sweet childish story...although I must say, it did make me strong. It did!
I tell you, if it wasn't for that experience, I think I might have gone through a lot of heartbreaks now. Not to mention it might be easy for guys to make me say "yes". I don't know. Ever since I realized what that monster has done to me, I started to strive to change and become more like an adult, to surpass that made-up person. To make that lesbian see my achievements and regret that she did all those terrible things to me. I became stricter when it comes to choosing guys I like. And...I don't know..I just used to be the one who's always crying and chasing after guys but now I'm the one who's always starting the fight and torturing Anton back when he was still courting me.
And since Anton was courting me and he couldn't get near me for real since a lot of people are preventing me from letting him be with me..well. We went through a lot of prying eyes of people who would scold me and say
"Wag mo ngang hahayaang akbayan ka ni Anton. Kung sansan na napupunta kamay niya. Chinachansingan ka"
"Hindi ka pa pwedeng magkaron ng boyfriend and bata bata mo pa. Hindi mo pa alam kung anong ibig sabihin ng LOVE"
They tried almost everything to pull me away from Anton but all in vain. I know Anton better than they do. And he'll never touch me like what they told me. And he always protected me that's why we're always together. And Anton's sincere. Anton loves me. Why was it hard for them to see that Anton's not like any other guy out there?
Just this week, I asked Anton why or how did he fell in love with me. And he couldn't give me a specific answer. So he just said I'm a nice person and I'm the only one who appreciated him. I'm thinking of the same thing. Come to think of it, Anton's clearly not my ideal kind of guy and I only got a crush on him out of desperation but it vanished when I finally knew he was months younger than me. And..I don't know. Anton's too sissy. I fell in love with him because he has the purest soul i've ever seen in my entire life, and I cannot tell the world I am not capable of seeing this wonderful person because his soul bursts through in every action,words and everything he does. I was just in awe, grateful I found this very person. Of all the people in the world, of all circumstances, I met Anton.
And WTF, I know I look like a mad person right now. You might think I'm crazy for saying such cheezy things over and over again. But I don't care.
I once swore not to love anymore because I knew I was stupid...you can tell by my experience. And when I finally thought I was cold enough to endure the possible warming hearts of men, well I just found the person who has the warmest heart, enough to melt mine and to make my heart beat again. I found him here, the most unexpected place to find my prince.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Love Story
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go
And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh
'Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go
And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you
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Hahaha.Sorry. I just find this song really really cute :3 I've been singing it for months and it makes me feel giddy and zippy RARARARARARARAR!:3 Hahaha. Of course it's so overrated for me to look at Anton as some kind of Romeo.LOL But it's just soooooo cute.
When we was still in Baguio, walking together was not simply walking and laughing together. At random times, he would ask me "Will you marry me?" And of course my first reaciton was "WTF, what are you saying?" then I'd look at him as if he's a weirdo and I'd laugh and I'd tell him to ask it again the next time when he kneels before me with the perfect ring haha. But well, he would always ask me that question every now and then. And I kept on asking myself why he was doing that because the answer to that simple question is a simple YES.
I'm just happy my father's starting to appreciate Anton. :] I think..I think my MUM IS THE REAL CULPRIT HERE. Just using my dad's name to tell me not to hang out with Anton too much cause that's what my mum always do to me and my cousins and my other relatives. HARUMPF.
Anyway..sorry im flooding with cheezy blog entries lately. I'm just SO HAPPY I have got to express what I'm feeling inside or else I'm going to be like a rocket zooming into outer space!
P.S. more cheezy blog entries to follow. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
Monday, January 05, 2009
mood: giddy!
Anton visited my place for the second time yesterday!:] Well, he was supposed to arrive at around 10am but then he got stuck somewhere so he arrived an hour and a half late. Nanay (my mum's mother) was like "Tanunging mo nga siya kung may lahi siyang Intsik. Kasi ang mga intsik tanghaling tapat umaakyat ng ligaw" and I was like "Nay naman. Di noh. Natraffic lang po yun, hindi nga po chinito yun eh." And Nanay was telling me not to pick fair skinned guys and stuff like that. ;p
So then...Anton met my relatives. Two of my younger cousinettes (Kat and Melrose, the ones we brought along in Pagudpud) and Nanay and Tita Meng (mama's younger sister) and her husband, Tito Vic :]
What did we do? Basically nothing.LOL
Just chatting outside. Him getting bitten by CHIBI! He was like "AAAAHHH!KINAGAT AKO!"
And I was like "Hindi yan! Hindi marunong mangagat sila Yuki" and then Anton was pointing at Chibi and I started to laugh and I told him "Ay..except pala dyan. HAHAHHA Sorry nalimutan ko sabihin ;p" And chibi kept on looking at Anton and barking at him and everytime chibi would walk towards our seats anton would get up.HAHAHAHHA. CUTE.
But then he said it didn't hurt! Just a little scratch, i think.XDDD
So then when my relatives left, and nanay crying when she bid farewell and hugged me...uhm...well, we looked at my photo albums and...browsed through my dusty collection of Questor back in grade school. And talked about Code Geass. And talked about him leaving the country after he graduates :(
He was like "22 pa ata ako ggrad. intayin mo nalang ako."
I was like "22 ka na pag aalis ka na dito. Hindi pa ako tapos maglaw nun.24 pa ako ggrad. Ikaw pa ang magiintay sakin noh."
Well...I don't think we'll be able to pursue the scholarship in Japan together..which made me think..I think I'd pass being a scholar of whoever wealthy person may it beMr.Madgrigal-Bayot or who..I just want to study Law where Anton is. And I guess UP-Diliman's the best thing to pick. :S WAAAAAAAAAA. I can't bear being away from Anton again!:( NO.:(
Anyway, Anton left at around 5 in the afternoon. Actually, I didn't want him to go yet but..dad asked me if Anton can go home early since we're leaving for Baguio the next day which is today. SIGH.
BUT!
THE GOOD NEWS IS...TA-DA!
DAD SAID, AND I QUOTE "Mabait naman pala si Anton eh. Sana hindi siya magbago"
And deep inside me, even if I was playing Fire Emblem for the third time and was busy..my heart went skipping and I wanted to scream! YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY~
OF COURSE DAD, HE IS! I WON'T LET HIM NEAR ME IF HE'S NOT THE PERFECT ONE FOR ME! WEEEEEEEE~
And there.
I'm so happy we're together yesterday. :]
Anton visited my place for the second time yesterday!:] Well, he was supposed to arrive at around 10am but then he got stuck somewhere so he arrived an hour and a half late. Nanay (my mum's mother) was like "Tanunging mo nga siya kung may lahi siyang Intsik. Kasi ang mga intsik tanghaling tapat umaakyat ng ligaw" and I was like "Nay naman. Di noh. Natraffic lang po yun, hindi nga po chinito yun eh." And Nanay was telling me not to pick fair skinned guys and stuff like that. ;p
So then...Anton met my relatives. Two of my younger cousinettes (Kat and Melrose, the ones we brought along in Pagudpud) and Nanay and Tita Meng (mama's younger sister) and her husband, Tito Vic :]
What did we do? Basically nothing.LOL
Just chatting outside. Him getting bitten by CHIBI! He was like "AAAAHHH!KINAGAT AKO!"
And I was like "Hindi yan! Hindi marunong mangagat sila Yuki" and then Anton was pointing at Chibi and I started to laugh and I told him "Ay..except pala dyan. HAHAHHA Sorry nalimutan ko sabihin ;p" And chibi kept on looking at Anton and barking at him and everytime chibi would walk towards our seats anton would get up.HAHAHAHHA. CUTE.
But then he said it didn't hurt! Just a little scratch, i think.XDDD
So then when my relatives left, and nanay crying when she bid farewell and hugged me...uhm...well, we looked at my photo albums and...browsed through my dusty collection of Questor back in grade school. And talked about Code Geass. And talked about him leaving the country after he graduates :(
He was like "22 pa ata ako ggrad. intayin mo nalang ako."
I was like "22 ka na pag aalis ka na dito. Hindi pa ako tapos maglaw nun.24 pa ako ggrad. Ikaw pa ang magiintay sakin noh."
Well...I don't think we'll be able to pursue the scholarship in Japan together..which made me think..I think I'd pass being a scholar of whoever wealthy person may it beMr.Madgrigal-Bayot or who..I just want to study Law where Anton is. And I guess UP-Diliman's the best thing to pick. :S WAAAAAAAAAA. I can't bear being away from Anton again!:( NO.:(
Anyway, Anton left at around 5 in the afternoon. Actually, I didn't want him to go yet but..dad asked me if Anton can go home early since we're leaving for Baguio the next day which is today. SIGH.
BUT!
THE GOOD NEWS IS...TA-DA!
DAD SAID, AND I QUOTE "Mabait naman pala si Anton eh. Sana hindi siya magbago"
And deep inside me, even if I was playing Fire Emblem for the third time and was busy..my heart went skipping and I wanted to scream! YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY~
OF COURSE DAD, HE IS! I WON'T LET HIM NEAR ME IF HE'S NOT THE PERFECT ONE FOR ME! WEEEEEEEE~
And there.
I'm so happy we're together yesterday. :]
Monday, December 29, 2008
mood: blissfully happy
You know, I don't care about what you say. I love Anton and I know we'll be together forever. We're tired of hearing you whine and say "huwag kang magsalita ng tapos"...I mean, come on..with this postmodernism-ISM thing going on, why won't you just apply it to love, too? I am not the same person as you are, he's not the same as another man. We have different lives and perspectives. So I tell you, "huwag ka rin magsalita ng tapos" as you can never know what lies in the future. Err, well, but if you can see the future then go ahead. Otherwise, just leave us alone.Our story will never be the same as yours so quit warning us about something that is basically common sense of which we will never end up with. Okay?
This world has turn so cold and chaotic. But then there's always a sanctuary you can find if you really really want to find it. Im just "lucky" I found mine. It's just a manner and matter of patience and trust.
I love him so. I love him more each day. He loves me just the same. And I'm soooo happy we found each other.
AND GOD, AM I BEING SOOOO CHEEZZY..BUT THE HELL I CARE. IT'S ANTON WE'RE TALKING ABOUT!
Where was I? Oh yeah. Anton's not my ideal boyfriend..but he's perfect for me...uh, yeah it's kind of confusing but read between the lines. And he said I'm perfect for him. Perfect match :]
May you please do me a favor? Just leave us alone and don't assume things which are just possibilities. In the end you will always know the truth. If we are to break up, then fine we're not meant for each other..we're wrong and we're naive. It's okay. But if we do make it in the end and die in each other's arms..then that's ever better.
But for now, just mind your own business. We're tired of hearing you say the same things over and over again.
Anton said, if you cannot give everything to the person, if you let a piece of doubt in your heart..then you shouldn't love at all. Well, I say..in the first place it will never be giving love at all. Because love comes after trust. And with doubt it means that you haven't fathomed the meaning of trust at all. And hence, you're not even in the position to know love.
That's the problem with the world now. You can't distinguish love from infatuation. In fact, it is hard for humans to know what love means. Love will never be just a feeling. It's a decision. A decision that cannot be reversed or trampled since it changes your life forever.
We only get to live once.
And I've decided to love Anton.
Anton decided to love me just the same.
That cannot be reversed.
We only get to love once.
We are to marry someday. Travel to places together. Live together. Anton will take me out on a date on weekends. Then we'll have two kids. I'll cook for him everyday and welcome him home. We'll raise our kids well and have stable jobs. And we'll die in each other's arms. These are us daydreaming..and we never get tired of talking about the future every single day.
We both have to work hard to have a bright future. For ourselves and especially for our kids. That's the plan. I can't wait to be Anton's wife.:]
It's funny to know that when I was a little kid, I wanted to be a nun. And I tried to hold onto that until HS graduation. Even mum recently said "Akala ko ba magmamadre ka" after hearing me say Anton will officially be my boyfriend once I finish my course which will be next year October...AND NOT AFTER LA PROPER GRADUATION [PLEASE, THAT IS TOO MUCH!].. and well...
Sorry, I'm no longer under the Catholics.
And Anton's just the same. We're born agains and we share the same views.
I love Anton so much.
We've got to face a lot of preparations and we're starting now.:]
OH. I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH HIM EVERYDAY! Even if we never stopped communication with each other since the 11th day of October 2006. :] I'm never tired of talking to Anton. He's the best guy I've ever met. And no, I turn down all other suitors and stalkers and the like. And I never seriously look at other guys. Anton's the same. We're both AB-normals when it comes to love. :3
WELL, HEY. HE SAID I'M SMART, NICE, HOT AND PRETTY. So what else would he ask for? Hahaha. >;p I say ANTON'S TALL DARK AND HANDSOME AND SMART AND REALLY REALLY NICE.
You know, I don't care about what you say. I love Anton and I know we'll be together forever. We're tired of hearing you whine and say "huwag kang magsalita ng tapos"...I mean, come on..with this postmodernism-ISM thing going on, why won't you just apply it to love, too? I am not the same person as you are, he's not the same as another man. We have different lives and perspectives. So I tell you, "huwag ka rin magsalita ng tapos" as you can never know what lies in the future. Err, well, but if you can see the future then go ahead. Otherwise, just leave us alone.Our story will never be the same as yours so quit warning us about something that is basically common sense of which we will never end up with. Okay?
This world has turn so cold and chaotic. But then there's always a sanctuary you can find if you really really want to find it. Im just "lucky" I found mine. It's just a manner and matter of patience and trust.
I love him so. I love him more each day. He loves me just the same. And I'm soooo happy we found each other.
AND GOD, AM I BEING SOOOO CHEEZZY..BUT THE HELL I CARE. IT'S ANTON WE'RE TALKING ABOUT!
Where was I? Oh yeah. Anton's not my ideal boyfriend..but he's perfect for me...uh, yeah it's kind of confusing but read between the lines. And he said I'm perfect for him. Perfect match :]
May you please do me a favor? Just leave us alone and don't assume things which are just possibilities. In the end you will always know the truth. If we are to break up, then fine we're not meant for each other..we're wrong and we're naive. It's okay. But if we do make it in the end and die in each other's arms..then that's ever better.
But for now, just mind your own business. We're tired of hearing you say the same things over and over again.Anton said, if you cannot give everything to the person, if you let a piece of doubt in your heart..then you shouldn't love at all. Well, I say..in the first place it will never be giving love at all. Because love comes after trust. And with doubt it means that you haven't fathomed the meaning of trust at all. And hence, you're not even in the position to know love.
That's the problem with the world now. You can't distinguish love from infatuation. In fact, it is hard for humans to know what love means. Love will never be just a feeling. It's a decision. A decision that cannot be reversed or trampled since it changes your life forever.
We only get to live once.
And I've decided to love Anton.
Anton decided to love me just the same.
That cannot be reversed.
We only get to love once.
We are to marry someday. Travel to places together. Live together. Anton will take me out on a date on weekends. Then we'll have two kids. I'll cook for him everyday and welcome him home. We'll raise our kids well and have stable jobs. And we'll die in each other's arms. These are us daydreaming..and we never get tired of talking about the future every single day.
We both have to work hard to have a bright future. For ourselves and especially for our kids. That's the plan. I can't wait to be Anton's wife.:]
It's funny to know that when I was a little kid, I wanted to be a nun. And I tried to hold onto that until HS graduation. Even mum recently said "Akala ko ba magmamadre ka" after hearing me say Anton will officially be my boyfriend once I finish my course which will be next year October...AND NOT AFTER LA PROPER GRADUATION [PLEASE, THAT IS TOO MUCH!].. and well...
Sorry, I'm no longer under the Catholics.
And Anton's just the same. We're born agains and we share the same views.
I love Anton so much.
We've got to face a lot of preparations and we're starting now.:]
OH. I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH HIM EVERYDAY!
Even if we never stopped communication with each other since the 11th day of October 2006. :] I'm never tired of talking to Anton. He's the best guy I've ever met. And no, I turn down all other suitors and stalkers and the like. And I never seriously look at other guys. Anton's the same. We're both AB-normals when it comes to love. :3WELL, HEY. HE SAID I'M SMART, NICE, HOT AND PRETTY. So what else would he ask for? Hahaha. >;p I say ANTON'S TALL DARK AND HANDSOME AND SMART AND REALLY REALLY NICE.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
mood: delighted
Oh I can't use my globe net here at home. I don't know, it's crappy and it wont connect. Anyway, since I'm using my prepaid smartbro and I'm in a rush, I'll just tell you three things I experienced so far.
1. Anton went to my place last Dec25 around 5:30pm hihi.:] He bought us cake and we played chess. He lost to me, though. That's his fault for making me do that move I was not supposed to make ;p We didn't really do so much since he left at around 9pm. I just showed him around the house and introduced my dogs to him. Dad seemed nice. IT MADE ME WANT TO JUMP AND HOP HOP HOP AND SPIN AROUND like a crazy little girl. Although christmas day was gloomy due to the rain, it was fun hanging around with Anton. So yeah, we basically played gameboy emulator the whole time he as here. And did I mention we were both astounded because my parents didn't kill him when he stepped into our place??
2. Our neighbor, Tita Irish, is pregnant and is about to give birth to a baby boy. And by heavens, she's got a really really big baby bump. I was about to ask if she got twins but I found out it was just a baby boy. It was hard for her to sit down, walk and stand and she's always supporting his lower back region with his hand. I was like "OMG WHAT IF I GET PREGNANT AND I'LL BE LIKE THAT TOO? OH.MY." at the bakc of my mind..but..whew..it's scary to be a mum.
3. My dad's cousin fro, Cebu arrived last night and we went to EK a while ago to take pictures and stuff. Tomorrow we'll be going to Subic to show her around the places. I asked dad if we can go fishing by the fishermen's wharf but then mum was rejecting my idea. GRRRRRRRRRRR.
I hope it goes well for Anton and my parents. REALLY.
I'm so glad his first encounter with the HITLERS was okay. Well, dad didn't know Anton's dad is dead..and he basically interoggated Anton but Anton's so nice and I think he felt it. WELL HE SHOULD. BY GODS, ANTON IS THE NICEST GUY I'VE EVER KNOWN.
Oh I can't use my globe net here at home. I don't know, it's crappy and it wont connect. Anyway, since I'm using my prepaid smartbro and I'm in a rush, I'll just tell you three things I experienced so far.
1. Anton went to my place last Dec25 around 5:30pm hihi.:] He bought us cake and we played chess. He lost to me, though. That's his fault for making me do that move I was not supposed to make ;p We didn't really do so much since he left at around 9pm. I just showed him around the house and introduced my dogs to him. Dad seemed nice. IT MADE ME WANT TO JUMP AND HOP HOP HOP AND SPIN AROUND like a crazy little girl. Although christmas day was gloomy due to the rain, it was fun hanging around with Anton. So yeah, we basically played gameboy emulator the whole time he as here. And did I mention we were both astounded because my parents didn't kill him when he stepped into our place??
2. Our neighbor, Tita Irish, is pregnant and is about to give birth to a baby boy. And by heavens, she's got a really really big baby bump. I was about to ask if she got twins but I found out it was just a baby boy. It was hard for her to sit down, walk and stand and she's always supporting his lower back region with his hand. I was like "OMG WHAT IF I GET PREGNANT AND I'LL BE LIKE THAT TOO? OH.MY." at the bakc of my mind..but..whew..it's scary to be a mum.
3. My dad's cousin fro, Cebu arrived last night and we went to EK a while ago to take pictures and stuff. Tomorrow we'll be going to Subic to show her around the places. I asked dad if we can go fishing by the fishermen's wharf but then mum was rejecting my idea. GRRRRRRRRRRR.
I hope it goes well for Anton and my parents. REALLY.
I'm so glad his first encounter with the HITLERS was okay. Well, dad didn't know Anton's dad is dead..and he basically interoggated Anton but Anton's so nice and I think he felt it. WELL HE SHOULD. BY GODS, ANTON IS THE NICEST GUY I'VE EVER KNOWN.
Monday, December 22, 2008
mood: pissed off
NAKAKAINIS.
Hindi na ako pumuntang christmas party ng mga kulasa. PAMPAM kasi sila mama. Wag daw akong umalis ng bahay kasi katawatawa daw suot ko.Pakialam ko ba. Eh ito gusto kong suotin.
1. sayang yung damit, once ko lang nagamit nung debut ni Jam
2. sawang sawa na ako sa pantalon at shorts
3. gusto ko nga sana magtights na blak eh wala naman akong matinong top. meron ngang top na binili, mukha naman akong buntis.
alam mo, this is more than just this petty clothes im wearing.
THIS IS MORE THAN JUST THAT.
SAWANG SAWA NA AKO.
PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
Bakit ganon?
Ginawa ko naman lahat para sa kanila ha.
Sinukli ko na lahat ng hirap na binuhos nila sakin.
UPian ako. Mataas naman grades ko. Wala akong bisyo. Wala akong sandamakma na mga manliligaw. Hindi ako buntis. Hindi ako lakwatchera. Hindi ako shopping ng shopping ng kung anuanong mga abubot na di naman kailangan. Di ako nagpapabili ng mga kung ano mang di naman kailangan. Hinihintay namin ni Anton go signal nila bago kami maging magkasama.
Ang sama ng loob ko for Anton. Kasi, sincere naman si Anton. Oo, hindi nga mayaman si anton. masyado xang payat, at mukhang babakla-bakla na walang alam sa mundo..pero hindi naman nila kilala si Anton eh. Kahit naman ala ng madami na may itsura si Anton, hindi siya katulad ng mga ibang guys dyan na babaero at basta basta nalang naiinlove. Hindi siya manloloko. At never niya kong ginalaw. Ang sama tlga ng loob ko kasi, noon si Anton nung hindi pa kami magkakilala, patapon daw buhay niya..sobrang laki ng pinagbago niya nung nagkakilala kami kasi nagsipag na siya magaral.
Sa totoo lang, kaya naamn siya pumaayag magnursing sa letran kasi iniisip niya future namin eh. Sinikmura niyang malayo sakin at kumuha ng isang course sa isang university na hindi naman karapatdapat para sa knya. Para lang mapatunayan niya kanila mama na kaya niyang magkaron ng trabaho na disenteng makakakuha siya ng madaming pera. Tutal, yun lang naman ang kulang sa kanya eh. PERA.
Putang inang PERA YAN. PERA LANG YAN.
Alam mo, si Anton..kahit loser siya, mahal ko siya. Matalino si Anton at sobrang bait na tao. Kung alam niyo lang. Lagi ko nga yan pinapaiyak eh. Lagi nalang ako yung nangaaway. Never niya kong inaway. Anong gusto niyong hanapin ko? Yung taong mayaman pero wala naman kwenta yung puso o yung utak? WAG NA NO.
Anton has everything besides MONEY.
PERA, WALA NAMAN YAN EH. PERA LANG YAN. PWEDENG MAKUHA YAN NG MADALIAN LANG. HINDI NAMAN UMIIKOT ANG MUNDO SA PERA LANG.
Nasasaktan ako for Anton, kasi hindi kami pwdeng magkita. Lagi nalang patago. Gustong gusto nga niya pumunta sa bahay para maintroduce ko siya formally kanila mama eh. Kaso sabi wag na kasi baka barilin pa siya ni dad. Actually, tinanong ko si ma kung pwde dumalaw sa bahay si Anton this christmas eh. hindi nagreply si mama. Wag nalang. Baka kung ano pa mangyare.
Bakit ganon? Yung pinsan kong first year college, laboy ng laboy. Yung manliligaw nga niya tambay ng bahay nila eh. Bakit ako hindi pwedeng ganon? SI Matet, 3rd yr HS palang may BF na nun. Bakit ako hindi pwde?
GUSTO BA NILA KONG GAWING FORCED MODEL TO MY COUSINS?
Eh wala naman epek eh. kasi kahit anong gawin niyo may sarili ng mga buhay yung mga pinsan ko.
At nakakasakit din namang malaman na kinukumpera niyo kami sa isa't isa. pagkukulang ni ganto ni ganyan.
PWDE BA. DI KAMI PERPEKTO. Naalala ko tuloy si Kat, sabi niya bakit daw ba siya kinukumpera sakin eh hindi naman siya ako. Ramdam ko kaya yun. Naaawa ako pag ginaganto kami at nasasaktan sila.
Bakit ganon? lahat naman ginawa ko eh. Kung tutuusin pwde naman akong magrebelde. I can choose to follow a path going nowhere. Pero hindi eh. Lahat ginagawa ko, maging perpekto para lang mapasaya sila daddy. Bakit hindi nila makita yun?
ANG ALAM LANG NILA, GINAGAWA KO SA BAGUIO MAGLARO NG MAGLARO NG GAMEBOY OR MAGINTERNET HANGGANG MADALING ARAW.
Adik daw ako.
Eh hindi naman sa ganon pero PUTANG INA MAAWA NAMAN KAYO. Hindi n nga lumalabas ng bahay tong anak niyo eh. WALA NAMAN AKONG LIBANGAN SA HINAYUPAK NA LUGAR NA YUN EH.Bakit ba lagi niyo nalang akong tinitignan na BATANG ISIP NA WALANG PAKIALAM SA MUNDO?
Ang laki na ng pinagbago ko. Hindi lang ako ang nagsasabi nito. Hindi niyo ba makita?
GUSTO KO NA MAGGRADUATE.
GUSTO KO NG UMALIS SA GANTONG SITWASYON
PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
GRABE.
WALA NA AKONG MASABI KUNGDI PAGOD NA AKO. MA. DADDY. PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
PARANG AWA NIYO NA, PAKAWALAN NIYO NA AKO.
NAKAKAINIS.
Hindi na ako pumuntang christmas party ng mga kulasa. PAMPAM kasi sila mama. Wag daw akong umalis ng bahay kasi katawatawa daw suot ko.Pakialam ko ba. Eh ito gusto kong suotin.
1. sayang yung damit, once ko lang nagamit nung debut ni Jam
2. sawang sawa na ako sa pantalon at shorts
3. gusto ko nga sana magtights na blak eh wala naman akong matinong top. meron ngang top na binili, mukha naman akong buntis.
alam mo, this is more than just this petty clothes im wearing.
THIS IS MORE THAN JUST THAT.
SAWANG SAWA NA AKO.
PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
Bakit ganon?
Ginawa ko naman lahat para sa kanila ha.
Sinukli ko na lahat ng hirap na binuhos nila sakin.
UPian ako. Mataas naman grades ko. Wala akong bisyo. Wala akong sandamakma na mga manliligaw. Hindi ako buntis. Hindi ako lakwatchera. Hindi ako shopping ng shopping ng kung anuanong mga abubot na di naman kailangan. Di ako nagpapabili ng mga kung ano mang di naman kailangan. Hinihintay namin ni Anton go signal nila bago kami maging magkasama.
Ang sama ng loob ko for Anton. Kasi, sincere naman si Anton. Oo, hindi nga mayaman si anton. masyado xang payat, at mukhang babakla-bakla na walang alam sa mundo..pero hindi naman nila kilala si Anton eh. Kahit naman ala ng madami na may itsura si Anton, hindi siya katulad ng mga ibang guys dyan na babaero at basta basta nalang naiinlove. Hindi siya manloloko. At never niya kong ginalaw. Ang sama tlga ng loob ko kasi, noon si Anton nung hindi pa kami magkakilala, patapon daw buhay niya..sobrang laki ng pinagbago niya nung nagkakilala kami kasi nagsipag na siya magaral.
Sa totoo lang, kaya naamn siya pumaayag magnursing sa letran kasi iniisip niya future namin eh. Sinikmura niyang malayo sakin at kumuha ng isang course sa isang university na hindi naman karapatdapat para sa knya. Para lang mapatunayan niya kanila mama na kaya niyang magkaron ng trabaho na disenteng makakakuha siya ng madaming pera. Tutal, yun lang naman ang kulang sa kanya eh. PERA.
Putang inang PERA YAN. PERA LANG YAN.
Alam mo, si Anton..kahit loser siya, mahal ko siya. Matalino si Anton at sobrang bait na tao. Kung alam niyo lang. Lagi ko nga yan pinapaiyak eh. Lagi nalang ako yung nangaaway. Never niya kong inaway. Anong gusto niyong hanapin ko? Yung taong mayaman pero wala naman kwenta yung puso o yung utak? WAG NA NO.
Anton has everything besides MONEY.
PERA, WALA NAMAN YAN EH. PERA LANG YAN. PWEDENG MAKUHA YAN NG MADALIAN LANG. HINDI NAMAN UMIIKOT ANG MUNDO SA PERA LANG.
Nasasaktan ako for Anton, kasi hindi kami pwdeng magkita. Lagi nalang patago. Gustong gusto nga niya pumunta sa bahay para maintroduce ko siya formally kanila mama eh. Kaso sabi wag na kasi baka barilin pa siya ni dad. Actually, tinanong ko si ma kung pwde dumalaw sa bahay si Anton this christmas eh. hindi nagreply si mama. Wag nalang. Baka kung ano pa mangyare.
Bakit ganon? Yung pinsan kong first year college, laboy ng laboy. Yung manliligaw nga niya tambay ng bahay nila eh. Bakit ako hindi pwedeng ganon? SI Matet, 3rd yr HS palang may BF na nun. Bakit ako hindi pwde?
GUSTO BA NILA KONG GAWING FORCED MODEL TO MY COUSINS?
Eh wala naman epek eh. kasi kahit anong gawin niyo may sarili ng mga buhay yung mga pinsan ko.
At nakakasakit din namang malaman na kinukumpera niyo kami sa isa't isa. pagkukulang ni ganto ni ganyan.
PWDE BA. DI KAMI PERPEKTO. Naalala ko tuloy si Kat, sabi niya bakit daw ba siya kinukumpera sakin eh hindi naman siya ako. Ramdam ko kaya yun. Naaawa ako pag ginaganto kami at nasasaktan sila.
Bakit ganon? lahat naman ginawa ko eh. Kung tutuusin pwde naman akong magrebelde. I can choose to follow a path going nowhere. Pero hindi eh. Lahat ginagawa ko, maging perpekto para lang mapasaya sila daddy. Bakit hindi nila makita yun?
ANG ALAM LANG NILA, GINAGAWA KO SA BAGUIO MAGLARO NG MAGLARO NG GAMEBOY OR MAGINTERNET HANGGANG MADALING ARAW.
Adik daw ako.
Eh hindi naman sa ganon pero PUTANG INA MAAWA NAMAN KAYO. Hindi n nga lumalabas ng bahay tong anak niyo eh. WALA NAMAN AKONG LIBANGAN SA HINAYUPAK NA LUGAR NA YUN EH.Bakit ba lagi niyo nalang akong tinitignan na BATANG ISIP NA WALANG PAKIALAM SA MUNDO?
Ang laki na ng pinagbago ko. Hindi lang ako ang nagsasabi nito. Hindi niyo ba makita?
GUSTO KO NA MAGGRADUATE.
GUSTO KO NG UMALIS SA GANTONG SITWASYON
PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
GRABE.
WALA NA AKONG MASABI KUNGDI PAGOD NA AKO. MA. DADDY. PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO.
PARANG AWA NIYO NA, PAKAWALAN NIYO NA AKO.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
mood: relaxed
HEE.:]
My friend, Auke, has a friend who's going to stay here in the Philippines from January to March (i think) And she emailed me about stuff. She's asking me for help about how to go from here to there. I'm so excited! It's been one year since I've been around someone who's not a filipino. Hahaha. I'm so tired of talking to filipinos.;p Awww. I miss Auke and Ben!
Anyway, TRUFFLES! OMG. I can eat chocos now! It's so frustrating opening the ref and seeing tons and tons of huge chocos waiting to be opened and me not being able to touch them.BUT NOW, AHAHAHAHAHA. YES, THIS IS THE LIFE!
The new year is going to be great, I can tell! [minus the exams, of course]
HEE.:]
My friend, Auke, has a friend who's going to stay here in the Philippines from January to March (i think) And she emailed me about stuff. She's asking me for help about how to go from here to there. I'm so excited! It's been one year since I've been around someone who's not a filipino. Hahaha. I'm so tired of talking to filipinos.;p Awww. I miss Auke and Ben!
Anyway, TRUFFLES! OMG. I can eat chocos now! It's so frustrating opening the ref and seeing tons and tons of huge chocos waiting to be opened and me not being able to touch them.BUT NOW, AHAHAHAHAHA. YES, THIS IS THE LIFE!
The new year is going to be great, I can tell! [minus the exams, of course]
Monday, December 15, 2008
mood: loved
HEE. yeah. BEST-est since I've got a dozen of best friends. anyway, I don't want to sound mean to my other buddies, but this lady [asuuu, lady daw.Haha.joke :D] is the next person who knows who I am next to Anton.
TA-DA.
Najmah Dingcong! :D:D:D
I don't know what so say, really. I'm just very very very very very grateful I met her. HEEHEE. Oh I remember the first time we met, she was sitting at the backseat of the school bus and I was raising an eyebrow since she kept on babbling about Slam Dunk.XD And also, I miss the days when we used to dance whenever the...[OMG NAJ!I FORGOT THE SONG TITLE!] but she knows what I'm talking about so.;p And also the time when we were tripping on the people outside while the school bus was on the road, us waving at random people. Calling their attention and then hiding once they turn around and look for us...
And not to mention the plans we have based on the Wild Thornberry's. MY GOSH. We have got to make that once we earn lotsa money. :]
I miss those things we do!
And also the times when we argue about small things and other people's ears were starting to bleed due to my uber high-pitched voice screaming.
And me eating some food and Naj telling me "nakakagutom pag pinapanuod ka kumain. Ang sarap mo kasing kumain eh."
And us hiding whenever we pass by the manananggal's hut. HAHAHA.
And Naj visiting my place and us having a slumber party downstairs and watching tv til 3 in the morning.
I remember the first time we wached the Moulin Rouge..she was already crying and I kept on asking so many questions so she said I had to pay attention to what we were watching.
And Naj waking up early in the morning and tripping on me sleeping.
And Naj doodling on my face with a ballpen/marker.
And Naj playing with Kimy, her favorite among my seven dogs.
And us singing glee club songs together.
And us singing some anime songs with my downloaded lyrics.
Oh so many things I miss from my childhood days.
It feels just like yesterday when we were just nerdy nerdy anime freak-ish high school students.
SIGH.
Come to think of it, after that tampo-tampo moment back in HS, we never really had a major fight afterwards.
I think that's the point when we understood each other. AWWWWWWWWWWW.
MISS YOU NAJIE!
And to the graduating bestest girlfriend of mine, CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'LL BE LEAVING THE UNIVERSITY SOON!
I hope you get a wonderful job and be happy after you graduate.:]
I'm always here if you need me!:]
LOVE YOU!
HEE. yeah. BEST-est since I've got a dozen of best friends. anyway, I don't want to sound mean to my other buddies, but this lady [asuuu, lady daw.Haha.joke :D] is the next person who knows who I am next to Anton.
TA-DA.
Najmah Dingcong! :D:D:D
I don't know what so say, really. I'm just very very very very very grateful I met her. HEEHEE. Oh I remember the first time we met, she was sitting at the backseat of the school bus and I was raising an eyebrow since she kept on babbling about Slam Dunk.XD And also, I miss the days when we used to dance whenever the...[OMG NAJ!I FORGOT THE SONG TITLE!] but she knows what I'm talking about so.;p And also the time when we were tripping on the people outside while the school bus was on the road, us waving at random people. Calling their attention and then hiding once they turn around and look for us...
And not to mention the plans we have based on the Wild Thornberry's. MY GOSH. We have got to make that once we earn lotsa money. :]
I miss those things we do!
And also the times when we argue about small things and other people's ears were starting to bleed due to my uber high-pitched voice screaming.
And me eating some food and Naj telling me "nakakagutom pag pinapanuod ka kumain. Ang sarap mo kasing kumain eh."
And us hiding whenever we pass by the manananggal's hut. HAHAHA.
And Naj visiting my place and us having a slumber party downstairs and watching tv til 3 in the morning.
I remember the first time we wached the Moulin Rouge..she was already crying and I kept on asking so many questions so she said I had to pay attention to what we were watching.
And Naj waking up early in the morning and tripping on me sleeping.
And Naj doodling on my face with a ballpen/marker.
And Naj playing with Kimy, her favorite among my seven dogs.
And us singing glee club songs together.
And us singing some anime songs with my downloaded lyrics.
Oh so many things I miss from my childhood days.
It feels just like yesterday when we were just nerdy nerdy anime freak-ish high school students.
SIGH.
Come to think of it, after that tampo-tampo moment back in HS, we never really had a major fight afterwards.
I think that's the point when we understood each other. AWWWWWWWWWWW.
MISS YOU NAJIE!
And to the graduating bestest girlfriend of mine, CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'LL BE LEAVING THE UNIVERSITY SOON!
I hope you get a wonderful job and be happy after you graduate.:]
I'm always here if you need me!:]
LOVE YOU!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
mood: exhausted
WUUUU.I thought my laptop got busted again. Fortunately it was fixed before I went to SM.:D Anyway, I've got three major things I want to share.
1. I went to the Benguet Lab the other day, since I realized there's no point consulting the UP clinic. The doctor was soooooooooo shocked [and I do mean she was SHOCKED] to find out that I took two medicaitons already for two weeks and my throat is not getting well. I had Augmentin 625mg twice a day for the first week I had pharyngitis and Clamydecin (something like that) 300mg thrice a day for another week. AND IT'S STILL NOT WORKING. Anyway, she said she doesn't want to prescribe another antibiotic since it's too dangerous. But I have to go back and get that thingy saliva culture (which MJ said was PAINFUL with the capital P) test to see what's the BIG problem. And fortunately, I'll get WELL.
This pharyngitis has been haunting me for three weeks, going to four weeks. I am soooo paranoid that I might get rheumati heart disease soon! (Yes, this has always been my problem ever since I was 5yrs old...FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO RESIST EATING SWEETS AND COLD FOOD..*tear*)..if you can't prevent this kind of disease, the bacteria goes to your heart and you'll get the worse one, the rheumatic heart disease.
And that means
FIVE YEARS OF FREQUENTLY VISITING THE HOSPITAL FOR INJECTIONS.
AND NOT TO MENTION DOZENS OF MEDICINES TO TAKE EVERYDAY.
FOR FIVE LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNG YEARS OF TORTURE.
That is not going to happen. NA AH. I AM GOING TO BE WELL. COME ON. COME ON BODY. PLEASE GET WELL!
2. Dad is in Arizona for his flight school this week. And I asked him to buy me ipod earhpones and 3-in-1 travel charger since I accidentally destroyed my earphones long long ago.;p
3. Mum suddenly texted me and said "Sabihin mo kay daddy mo bilan ka ng ps"
and I was like
me: "ps? psp ba?"
ma: "hindi. yung ds. iba ba yung ds a psp?"
me: "oo. iba yun. bakit naman?"
ma: "nakita ko kasi kay ishi. color pink. ang cute.pabili ka"
AND I WAS LIKE OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGG.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
YOU ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO TELL DAD TO BUY ME A WHA WHA WHA WHA?
A WHA?
A CONSOLE?
THIS IS TOTALLY UNBELIEVABLE.
So okay..I hope dad receives my messages.
I also added something like "dad also buy me a macbook ha."
And then I texted again (i got shy)
"pero ikaw na bahala kung magkano magkakasiya sa budget mo..kung kaya mo pa bumili ng macbook after ka bumili ng ipod earphones,charger at yung DS, ha...."
HEEHEE.
OF COURSE I WAS SHY.
I FELT LIKE A BRAT.
But no! I don't really want to have a ds. I just want a macbook to throw this toshiba away.
OOPS. SORRY TOPTOP. PEACE. I STILL WUB YOU. BUT OUR CONTRACT SEEMS TO COME TO AN END. SORRY.T_T
But I don't know!
I hope dad gets what I want.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.:D
Oh one week to go and then it's xmas break WOOT WOOT!
Off to study.
CIAO.
WUUUU.I thought my laptop got busted again. Fortunately it was fixed before I went to SM.:D Anyway, I've got three major things I want to share.
1. I went to the Benguet Lab the other day, since I realized there's no point consulting the UP clinic. The doctor was soooooooooo shocked [and I do mean she was SHOCKED] to find out that I took two medicaitons already for two weeks and my throat is not getting well. I had Augmentin 625mg twice a day for the first week I had pharyngitis and Clamydecin (something like that) 300mg thrice a day for another week. AND IT'S STILL NOT WORKING. Anyway, she said she doesn't want to prescribe another antibiotic since it's too dangerous. But I have to go back and get that thingy saliva culture (which MJ said was PAINFUL with the capital P) test to see what's the BIG problem. And fortunately, I'll get WELL.
This pharyngitis has been haunting me for three weeks, going to four weeks. I am soooo paranoid that I might get rheumati heart disease soon! (Yes, this has always been my problem ever since I was 5yrs old...FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO RESIST EATING SWEETS AND COLD FOOD..*tear*)..if you can't prevent this kind of disease, the bacteria goes to your heart and you'll get the worse one, the rheumatic heart disease.
And that means
FIVE YEARS OF FREQUENTLY VISITING THE HOSPITAL FOR INJECTIONS.
AND NOT TO MENTION DOZENS OF MEDICINES TO TAKE EVERYDAY.
FOR FIVE LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNG YEARS OF TORTURE.
That is not going to happen. NA AH. I AM GOING TO BE WELL. COME ON. COME ON BODY. PLEASE GET WELL!
2. Dad is in Arizona for his flight school this week. And I asked him to buy me ipod earhpones and 3-in-1 travel charger since I accidentally destroyed my earphones long long ago.;p
3. Mum suddenly texted me and said "Sabihin mo kay daddy mo bilan ka ng ps"
and I was like
me: "ps? psp ba?"
ma: "hindi. yung ds. iba ba yung ds a psp?"
me: "oo. iba yun. bakit naman?"
ma: "nakita ko kasi kay ishi. color pink. ang cute.pabili ka"
AND I WAS LIKE OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGG.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
YOU ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO TELL DAD TO BUY ME A WHA WHA WHA WHA?
A WHA?
A CONSOLE?
THIS IS TOTALLY UNBELIEVABLE.
So okay..I hope dad receives my messages.
I also added something like "dad also buy me a macbook ha."
And then I texted again (i got shy)
"pero ikaw na bahala kung magkano magkakasiya sa budget mo..kung kaya mo pa bumili ng macbook after ka bumili ng ipod earphones,charger at yung DS, ha...."
HEEHEE.
OF COURSE I WAS SHY.
I FELT LIKE A BRAT.
But no! I don't really want to have a ds. I just want a macbook to throw this toshiba away.
OOPS. SORRY TOPTOP. PEACE. I STILL WUB YOU. BUT OUR CONTRACT SEEMS TO COME TO AN END. SORRY.T_T
But I don't know!
I hope dad gets what I want.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.:D
Oh one week to go and then it's xmas break WOOT WOOT!
Off to study.
CIAO.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
mood: hungry
This is unfair..I can't eat anything sweet. anything cold.
But i bought cream puffs. HIHIHIHIHI.
Dear heavens, forgive me. I can't resist it. Watching Zettai Kareshi without a piece of cream puff makes me crave for it. So I bought some.LALALALALALALALA.
I don't know with this medicine, but..it sure it strong. Too strong for me. I'm feeling dizzy and i want to throw up. I can't move much and my tummy feels like I swallowed an ice cube and it makes me shiver sometimes. GYAH.
I hope ths medicine will make me well ASAP. Anyway, Dad's going to Arizona on Sunday and he can't bring me along with him since I still have classes and not to mention reporting. He'll stay there for a week..so. I don't know. It feels like it's going to be a long time...but it's just one week, though. HHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMM.
I'm beggining to get tired of school.
Econ 131, Ma'am Mendoza is making it hard for us. It's supposed to be handled by Ma'am Cruz. Ma'am Mendoza's not good at numbers. just theories.
SocSci199, is supposed to be tough..but it feels like just a boring seminar.
PolSci 192...is unfair. I know the answers to the questions. MY GOD IT'S SO EASY. But everytime I recite, the professor just ignores me. I am not inspired by that kind of teaching.
PolSci 163...seems okay. But I find it hard to understand. Nimreh. At least Nimreh's there.
Econ121 is also easy...so it's kind of boring...but I enjoy it.
Econ 198..is Saturday class. Hence I'm more bored.
HRM.
I want to go home and sleep all day.
HOME HOME HOME HOME.
Exactly two weeks to go!
This is unfair..I can't eat anything sweet. anything cold.
But i bought cream puffs. HIHIHIHIHI.
Dear heavens, forgive me. I can't resist it. Watching Zettai Kareshi without a piece of cream puff makes me crave for it. So I bought some.LALALALALALALALA.
I don't know with this medicine, but..it sure it strong. Too strong for me. I'm feeling dizzy and i want to throw up. I can't move much and my tummy feels like I swallowed an ice cube and it makes me shiver sometimes. GYAH.
I hope ths medicine will make me well ASAP. Anyway, Dad's going to Arizona on Sunday and he can't bring me along with him since I still have classes and not to mention reporting. He'll stay there for a week..so. I don't know. It feels like it's going to be a long time...but it's just one week, though. HHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMM.
I'm beggining to get tired of school.
Econ 131, Ma'am Mendoza is making it hard for us. It's supposed to be handled by Ma'am Cruz. Ma'am Mendoza's not good at numbers. just theories.
SocSci199, is supposed to be tough..but it feels like just a boring seminar.
PolSci 192...is unfair. I know the answers to the questions. MY GOD IT'S SO EASY. But everytime I recite, the professor just ignores me. I am not inspired by that kind of teaching.
PolSci 163...seems okay. But I find it hard to understand. Nimreh. At least Nimreh's there.
Econ121 is also easy...so it's kind of boring...but I enjoy it.
Econ 198..is Saturday class. Hence I'm more bored.
HRM.
I want to go home and sleep all day.
HOME HOME HOME HOME.
Exactly two weeks to go!
mood: loved
AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
I just love Zettai Kareshi. Both the manga [Yuu Watase's, which made me cry harder] and the drama show.
And gawd, even if Hayami Mokomichi isn't as perfect as Night, he pulled it off.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~
Oh wait. Come on, what am I talking about? Moko-sama's TALL DARK AND HANDSOME. AND HOT.AND SIZZZLLING HOT. AND DID I MENTION HE'S AS HOT AS THE SUN?
And he's got a killer smile.:] KYAAAAAA.
[Oh I miss Anton's smile just now.SNIFF]
Makes me want to cuddle my hunny bunny and tell him how much i love him.
<3
And yeah, I've been watching Zettai Kareshi for the fifth time. I never get tired of watching. SIGH.
I'm so glad Anton's not a robot...and even if he's not the ideal kind of boyfriend every girl wants, he's the perfect man for me.
My own absolute boyfriend :]
[Since Zettai=absolute and Kareshi=Boyfriend DING.]
Sometimes when I watch the show, I feel like Anton's just beside me. Naito-kun says things Anton would always tell me...:S
I MISS HIM MORE NOW...
And I'm supposed to take a bath now so I'm going to step out.:]
ANTON + SHARIZ = PERFECT.
NEH.NEH. CHEEZY MUCH HAHAHA. sorry, I'm in a very fluffy, wiggly bubbly mood today.:D
Je t'aime mon cheri.
Zutto dai suki da yo.:] ZUTTO.
AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
I just love Zettai Kareshi. Both the manga [Yuu Watase's, which made me cry harder] and the drama show.
And gawd, even if Hayami Mokomichi isn't as perfect as Night, he pulled it off.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~
Oh wait. Come on, what am I talking about? Moko-sama's TALL DARK AND HANDSOME. AND HOT.AND SIZZZLLING HOT. AND DID I MENTION HE'S AS HOT AS THE SUN?
And he's got a killer smile.:] KYAAAAAA.
[Oh I miss Anton's smile just now.SNIFF]
Makes me want to cuddle my hunny bunny and tell him how much i love him.
<3
And yeah, I've been watching Zettai Kareshi for the fifth time. I never get tired of watching. SIGH.
I'm so glad Anton's not a robot...and even if he's not the ideal kind of boyfriend every girl wants, he's the perfect man for me.
My own absolute boyfriend :]
[Since Zettai=absolute and Kareshi=Boyfriend DING.]
Sometimes when I watch the show, I feel like Anton's just beside me. Naito-kun says things Anton would always tell me...:S
I MISS HIM MORE NOW...
And I'm supposed to take a bath now so I'm going to step out.:]
ANTON + SHARIZ = PERFECT.
NEH.NEH. CHEEZY MUCH HAHAHA. sorry, I'm in a very fluffy, wiggly bubbly mood today.:D
Je t'aime mon cheri.
Zutto dai suki da yo.:] ZUTTO.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
mood: frustrated
The younger doctor assigned in the university clinic scolded me today. For having self medication. And I found out that Augmentin 625mg no longer work for me. And so I was prescribed with another medicine..which is weird because it's way cheaper and it has a lower dosage..not to mention that it says "hydrocholride" instead of "antibiotics".
I made a new friend today.:] Ryokosan from Osaka. She went to Gryffith University in Australia and is not very happy about being japanese. But I'm thankful she's really open about both the positive and negative things about Japan.
Well, anyway...I've got tons of things to do. And my head is aching again T_T
TOODLES.
P.S.
I'm away since I'm working on something VERY IMPORTANT.
The younger doctor assigned in the university clinic scolded me today. For having self medication. And I found out that Augmentin 625mg no longer work for me. And so I was prescribed with another medicine..which is weird because it's way cheaper and it has a lower dosage..not to mention that it says "hydrocholride" instead of "antibiotics".
I made a new friend today.:] Ryokosan from Osaka. She went to Gryffith University in Australia and is not very happy about being japanese. But I'm thankful she's really open about both the positive and negative things about Japan.
Well, anyway...I've got tons of things to do. And my head is aching again T_T
TOODLES.
P.S.
I'm away since I'm working on something VERY IMPORTANT.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
mood: sickly
I couldn't go to the univ last friday since I was having a major headache and fever. And now it's confirmed that my tonsils are swollen. AGAIN. As usual. And I thought I'm gonna have to escape this sickness for at least one year.
I've been having this since I was a little kid, at least once a year. So it's nothing unsual for me. Only the fact that it gets worse everytime and I have to take uber strong antibiotics now cause the normal ones won't work.
GAH.
Damn it. I hate it when I'm sick.
Dad was really worried since he was here yesterday. He asked me to take care of myself and a while ago before he was heading to the airport, he hugged me twice and kissed my forehead and reminded me about my medicine.
I really really want to get well today. Or if not today, SOON. TOMORROW.
PLEASE.
I have to go to class.
I can't bear this torture of not going to the university. I have to go to class.
COME ON.
PLEASE GET WELL, SHARIZ.
I couldn't go to the univ last friday since I was having a major headache and fever. And now it's confirmed that my tonsils are swollen. AGAIN. As usual. And I thought I'm gonna have to escape this sickness for at least one year.
I've been having this since I was a little kid, at least once a year. So it's nothing unsual for me. Only the fact that it gets worse everytime and I have to take uber strong antibiotics now cause the normal ones won't work.
GAH.
Damn it. I hate it when I'm sick.
Dad was really worried since he was here yesterday. He asked me to take care of myself and a while ago before he was heading to the airport, he hugged me twice and kissed my forehead and reminded me about my medicine.
I really really want to get well today. Or if not today, SOON. TOMORROW.
PLEASE.
I have to go to class.
I can't bear this torture of not going to the university. I have to go to class.
COME ON.
PLEASE GET WELL, SHARIZ.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
mood: suprised
OMG. Camilla Belle, the lady in the Lovebug video, who apparently looks like Ana Enriquez, miss dark chocolate [aww, man. when I see Camilla, I remember Ana.:)] is also the girl from 10,000BC and she was little miss Sarah Bulock in the film Practicla Magic..I mean, wee~ I love her.
They say Joe and Camille are together right now..I think they look nice, so I'm giving up on Joe.
I love Camilla.
I love Joe more.
But they look good together...wait!
WTF, she's three years older than us!
OMG. Camilla Belle, the lady in the Lovebug video, who apparently looks like Ana Enriquez, miss dark chocolate [aww, man. when I see Camilla, I remember Ana.:)] is also the girl from 10,000BC and she was little miss Sarah Bulock in the film Practicla Magic..I mean, wee~ I love her.
They say Joe and Camille are together right now..I think they look nice, so I'm giving up on Joe.
I love Camilla.
I love Joe more.
But they look good together...wait!
WTF, she's three years older than us!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
mood: accomplished
Yay. I got to collect the readings I need for next meeting.:3 And I also found out that my PolSci 163 teacher is ta-da SIR NIMREH CALDE. Hahahahahahaha. Long hair and beard, kamown. XD He's being his usual self, and I was looking at him and trying to compare how he looked like before and how he looks like now. I usually love men with long hair, but...nah!Nimreh, you look better with short hair with no beard. :S So anyway, the next thing I found out was that Prof.Mendoza and Prof. Danao did not have the slots for Economics 121, and we got a new instructor, a girl, who's very nice when it comes to attendance and grading system (it's flexible and we can adjust whatever we want to our liking)...how cool is that?:D HAHAHA. So there. A while ago I was sterilizing my plates and so, and I didn't know the water was too hot that my water bottle got deformed.SNIFF. I told my mum about it and she was okay with it..but I destroyed it.SNIFF. OOOOOOOOHHH GOSH. So there. Have to read for tomorrow's class. YAWN.
First week of the second semester, not even done but I feel really really tired. YAWN.
Maybe I was eating too much back home. Oh, all I did was to eat and watch TV. No exercise whatsoever.
I was telling Pat I want to do ballet again (her mentor is Lisa Macuja's classmate) I did ballet when I was a little girl with Lisa Macuja, though I didn't attend the recitals (LOL I NEVER DID, even with the piano playing in SM)...but I've got nothing to do here to kill the time...so I was thinking of relearning ballet. LOL Ballet, and my body's not that fit anymore. I can hardly do the basics now!:S Unofrtunately, the classes usually start late in the afternoon from around 5:30pm til seven or eight in the evening. NO. I cannot go out at night. I'm in danger of.........MY ABSOLUTELY PSYCHOTIC BESTFRIEND!!
HOW CAN I FORGET?!
LOL
And yeah, as if my folks would allow me to be outside past 6pm.
Nyar.
P.S. I miss Dr.J and Sir Toto and....uhmm...Sir Boq..hihi.:D and...Ma'am Cruz.SNIFF.
Yay. I got to collect the readings I need for next meeting.:3 And I also found out that my PolSci 163 teacher is ta-da SIR NIMREH CALDE. Hahahahahahaha. Long hair and beard, kamown. XD He's being his usual self, and I was looking at him and trying to compare how he looked like before and how he looks like now. I usually love men with long hair, but...nah!Nimreh, you look better with short hair with no beard. :S So anyway, the next thing I found out was that Prof.Mendoza and Prof. Danao did not have the slots for Economics 121, and we got a new instructor, a girl, who's very nice when it comes to attendance and grading system (it's flexible and we can adjust whatever we want to our liking)...how cool is that?:D HAHAHA. So there. A while ago I was sterilizing my plates and so, and I didn't know the water was too hot that my water bottle got deformed.SNIFF. I told my mum about it and she was okay with it..but I destroyed it.SNIFF. OOOOOOOOHHH GOSH. So there. Have to read for tomorrow's class. YAWN.
First week of the second semester, not even done but I feel really really tired. YAWN.
Maybe I was eating too much back home. Oh, all I did was to eat and watch TV. No exercise whatsoever.
I was telling Pat I want to do ballet again (her mentor is Lisa Macuja's classmate) I did ballet when I was a little girl with Lisa Macuja, though I didn't attend the recitals (LOL I NEVER DID, even with the piano playing in SM)...but I've got nothing to do here to kill the time...so I was thinking of relearning ballet. LOL Ballet, and my body's not that fit anymore. I can hardly do the basics now!:S Unofrtunately, the classes usually start late in the afternoon from around 5:30pm til seven or eight in the evening. NO. I cannot go out at night. I'm in danger of.........MY ABSOLUTELY PSYCHOTIC BESTFRIEND!!
HOW CAN I FORGET?!
LOL
And yeah, as if my folks would allow me to be outside past 6pm.
Nyar.
P.S. I miss Dr.J and Sir Toto and....uhmm...Sir Boq..hihi.:D and...Ma'am Cruz.SNIFF.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Yeah, we were talking. Anton's bestfriend and I. Very witty big guy. I love talking to people who make sense of things. I rarely have serious conversations with people of my age or generation, but there are some whom I find mature and wise enough to talk to at times when I'm pondering about things. Well, I can't really remember what he specifically said, but it goes something like this:
"You know the problem with our generation is? I don't think there are no great individuals in our generation. It's like everyone is trying to fight for uniqueness and everyone is claiming that they know everything. In the end, with all this uniqueness... nobody stands out."
and I agreed,
"I think vanity reigns in the hearts of the people of our generation. I guess you're right. I hate it when people think they know everything. Isn't it better to say that you don't know this and that than to pretend that you DO know something when in fact you don't really know a thing about it? I mean, if you pretend, you're going to be in real trouble and most probably humiliation..."
What if you said you know about car engines?
Then the other person starts to babble about the specifications. And asks you what you like best about car engines.
And then you don't really know anything about car engines?
Then what now?
What are you going to do?
What are you going to say?
SEE. YOU'RE A SHAME. GO TO HELL.
I remember my dad, when we went to Pagudpud, and then when we got home he got our Starex cleaned. Another guy got his car done and the two men talked all od a sudden.
man: my car's all flithy because of our trip
dad: yeah, i can see that...where did you have your vacation?
man: in la union..you know the beaches there? it's pretty good.*proud air*
dad: ah..okay. *nods*
man: and you?
dad: oh, we just went to pagudpud...*shrugs*
man: *eyes popped* really??wow. that's too far away...i heard the place is really nice..
dad: not really...the sand's okay. it looks a bit much like boracay. but boracay sand is finer than the sand in pagudpud.
man: *jaws dropped* you've gone to boracay??
dad: yeah. i visit boracay at times.
man: wow..
See. The lesson here is NEVER TALK WHEN YOU'RE MOUTH IS FULL ...NO, YOUR HEAD IS FULL OF BAD AIR. and no, I am not talking about bad breath. If there's no other reason for you to say something other than trying to intimidate others or praise yourself, then DON'T TALK AT ALL. keep your mouth shut cause you don't know who you are talking to at the moment when you want to do it. Unaware of other people's capacities and experiences. They might be better than you are. AND THEY DON'T EVEN SAY A THING OR TO UNLESS YOU PROVOKE THEM.
Vanity is such a retarded piece of crap.
I don't want to be like other people.
I know I know little about things.
That's why I keep on saying this (and you can see this in my previous blog entries, you can bet on it!)
I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER.
I'm a little soul with a great aspiration to know everything I can before I die.
I know who I am and I'm proud of the things I am capable of doing.
But I never want to claim that I know everything and that I am so unique like an immortal god since that is now what I am. I like to see a common denominator or a few, or a many, between another person and I. The common things are the ones that keep people together. It's not always the case that opposites attract. I love my friends because we share something in common. I want to connect with the world. People. Animals. Surroundings. Stories. Philosophies. I feel a lot better with it.;]
"You know the problem with our generation is? I don't think there are no great individuals in our generation. It's like everyone is trying to fight for uniqueness and everyone is claiming that they know everything. In the end, with all this uniqueness... nobody stands out."
and I agreed,
"I think vanity reigns in the hearts of the people of our generation. I guess you're right. I hate it when people think they know everything. Isn't it better to say that you don't know this and that than to pretend that you DO know something when in fact you don't really know a thing about it? I mean, if you pretend, you're going to be in real trouble and most probably humiliation..."
What if you said you know about car engines?
Then the other person starts to babble about the specifications. And asks you what you like best about car engines.
And then you don't really know anything about car engines?
Then what now?
What are you going to do?
What are you going to say?
SEE. YOU'RE A SHAME. GO TO HELL.
I remember my dad, when we went to Pagudpud, and then when we got home he got our Starex cleaned. Another guy got his car done and the two men talked all od a sudden.
man: my car's all flithy because of our trip
dad: yeah, i can see that...where did you have your vacation?
man: in la union..you know the beaches there? it's pretty good.*proud air*
dad: ah..okay. *nods*
man: and you?
dad: oh, we just went to pagudpud...*shrugs*
man: *eyes popped* really??wow. that's too far away...i heard the place is really nice..
dad: not really...the sand's okay. it looks a bit much like boracay. but boracay sand is finer than the sand in pagudpud.
man: *jaws dropped* you've gone to boracay??
dad: yeah. i visit boracay at times.
man: wow..
See. The lesson here is NEVER TALK WHEN YOU'RE MOUTH IS FULL ...NO, YOUR HEAD IS FULL OF BAD AIR. and no, I am not talking about bad breath. If there's no other reason for you to say something other than trying to intimidate others or praise yourself, then DON'T TALK AT ALL. keep your mouth shut cause you don't know who you are talking to at the moment when you want to do it. Unaware of other people's capacities and experiences. They might be better than you are. AND THEY DON'T EVEN SAY A THING OR TO UNLESS YOU PROVOKE THEM.
Vanity is such a retarded piece of crap.
I don't want to be like other people.
I know I know little about things.
That's why I keep on saying this (and you can see this in my previous blog entries, you can bet on it!)
I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER.
I'm a little soul with a great aspiration to know everything I can before I die.
I know who I am and I'm proud of the things I am capable of doing.
But I never want to claim that I know everything and that I am so unique like an immortal god since that is now what I am. I like to see a common denominator or a few, or a many, between another person and I. The common things are the ones that keep people together. It's not always the case that opposites attract. I love my friends because we share something in common. I want to connect with the world. People. Animals. Surroundings. Stories. Philosophies. I feel a lot better with it.;]
mood: exhausted, sleepy
I thought I was gonna be late for my first class but turned out I was not. And turns out Prof.Mendoza's my Econometrics teacher, not Prof. Cruz...yawn...she was a bit jolly today. Hope she'll always be in the good mood everytime..:] Well, I'm not used to the rain AGAIN and I hate going out of my room..I just want to curl up with my fluffy blankie and sleep all day. SNIFF. I wish. Anyway, my PolSci192 was okay. Only, I was the youngest in the class and I was feeling kind of intimidated. Which I shouldn't be feeling anyway, since I should be proud that I only have seven subjects to go before graduating. But of course, I don't have that kind of attitude.I get intimidated rather too easily...what a shame. HEE. Kidding. I don't want to be an airhead anyway. I'd rather hide than bark, you know what I mean? Well anyway, the reason why I rarely use my multiply account is that I am so bored and I'm yearning to go to other places and meet other people and cultures..not to rot here in the Philippines with the people...not that I'm being rude but...sometimes people just have to break free and meet NEW FACES and talk to people from other places...it feels kind of lonely now when I talk to Filipinos. The same thing over and over again. I want to go out and talk non stop with tons of different people!
Anton's bestfriend told me he feels like I was destined to do great things in the future...I felt kind of happy and proud..but come to think of it, my parents are trying to do their best to give me the best things I would ever need. And I'm just thankful for everyone and everything that helped me to be who and what I am right now. I don't want to be vain but to be honest, I just really really want to know everything the world has to offer. I want to roam the world in search of...truth?HAHAHA bleh. no, not that. Truth is already in the bible. I just want to see the world.
OH THE WORLD.
SEE THE WORLD.
Before everything dies.
Before I die.
Before global warming kills my precious polar bears.
Before I have kids.
Before my brain starts to wear out.
Before I meet Joe Jonas...OOPS. No. Scratch that. I have to meet Joe Jonas in the process. HEE HEE.
I have something to post after this one.
I thought I was gonna be late for my first class but turned out I was not. And turns out Prof.Mendoza's my Econometrics teacher, not Prof. Cruz...yawn...she was a bit jolly today. Hope she'll always be in the good mood everytime..:] Well, I'm not used to the rain AGAIN and I hate going out of my room..I just want to curl up with my fluffy blankie and sleep all day. SNIFF. I wish. Anyway, my PolSci192 was okay. Only, I was the youngest in the class and I was feeling kind of intimidated. Which I shouldn't be feeling anyway, since I should be proud that I only have seven subjects to go before graduating. But of course, I don't have that kind of attitude.I get intimidated rather too easily...what a shame. HEE. Kidding. I don't want to be an airhead anyway. I'd rather hide than bark, you know what I mean? Well anyway, the reason why I rarely use my multiply account is that I am so bored and I'm yearning to go to other places and meet other people and cultures..not to rot here in the Philippines with the people...not that I'm being rude but...sometimes people just have to break free and meet NEW FACES and talk to people from other places...it feels kind of lonely now when I talk to Filipinos. The same thing over and over again. I want to go out and talk non stop with tons of different people!
Anton's bestfriend told me he feels like I was destined to do great things in the future...I felt kind of happy and proud..but come to think of it, my parents are trying to do their best to give me the best things I would ever need. And I'm just thankful for everyone and everything that helped me to be who and what I am right now. I don't want to be vain but to be honest, I just really really want to know everything the world has to offer. I want to roam the world in search of...truth?HAHAHA bleh. no, not that. Truth is already in the bible. I just want to see the world.
OH THE WORLD.
SEE THE WORLD.
Before everything dies.
Before I die.
Before global warming kills my precious polar bears.
Before I have kids.
Before my brain starts to wear out.
Before I meet Joe Jonas...OOPS. No. Scratch that. I have to meet Joe Jonas in the process. HEE HEE.
I have something to post after this one.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
mood: whining much
Stupid Economics class was moved to saturdays. Now I can't go home if I want to.:S But anyway, it might help me kill the oh so boring time in Baguio City. Prof. Cruz is pretty happy to find out that I only have seven subjects to go before I graduate.:D Mama wants me to think about my thesis but....NAAAAAAAAAAAH. I'll think about it when the time comes. I still do not know what I want.:] short hair and here's a photo of me,too!:D
Stupid Economics class was moved to saturdays. Now I can't go home if I want to.:S But anyway, it might help me kill the oh so boring time in Baguio City. Prof. Cruz is pretty happy to find out that I only have seven subjects to go before I graduate.:D Mama wants me to think about my thesis but....NAAAAAAAAAAAH. I'll think about it when the time comes. I still do not know what I want.:] short hair and here's a photo of me,too!:D
| TIME | TUESDAY - THURSDAY | WEDNESDAY-FRIDAY | SATURDAY |
| 8:30 – 10:00 | | Social Sciences 199 | Economics 192 |
| 10:00 – 11:30 | Economics 131 | | Economics 192 |
| 11:30 – 12:00 | Economics 131 | | Economics 192 |
| 12:00 – 1:00 | LUNCH BREAK | LUNCH BREAK | |
| 1:00 – 2:30 | Political Science 192 | Political Science 163 | |
| 2:30 – 4:00 | | Economics 121 | |
Monday, November 03, 2008
mood: tired
Okay. I have my clearance with me and I have nothing to do here in Baguio. So better yet to post something here and kill the time. I had my hair trimmed (trim???not the right word LOL) the other day (i think, i forgot...) and it's uber short. It reaches up to my ears (well, the bottom tip of it) and I'm wearing headband so I look like a little girl.:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I don't really care if it looks good on me. I just like the feeling of cutting my hair. RARARARA
CUT CUT CUT. Heee:3
Oh I have "reasons" but not really true.
1. I'm heartbroken. SORT OF. When Joe didn't reply to my email :S and a lot of people are telling me he's GHAAAAAAAAAAAAYH.
2. Uh..*shrugs*
So anyway....I have to wake up early tomorrow for the enrollment and hopefully go home by 10 in the morning. I don't really like BAGUIO. My souls wants to get out of my body and hurry to come home.
LALALALALALALALALALALALALA. WHAT TO DO?
I'm bored.
Okay. I have my clearance with me and I have nothing to do here in Baguio. So better yet to post something here and kill the time. I had my hair trimmed (trim???not the right word LOL) the other day (i think, i forgot...) and it's uber short. It reaches up to my ears (well, the bottom tip of it) and I'm wearing headband so I look like a little girl.:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I don't really care if it looks good on me. I just like the feeling of cutting my hair. RARARARA
CUT CUT CUT. Heee:3
Oh I have "reasons" but not really true.
1. I'm heartbroken. SORT OF. When Joe didn't reply to my email :S and a lot of people are telling me he's GHAAAAAAAAAAAAYH.
2. Uh..*shrugs*
So anyway....I have to wake up early tomorrow for the enrollment and hopefully go home by 10 in the morning. I don't really like BAGUIO. My souls wants to get out of my body and hurry to come home.
LALALALALALALALALALALALALA. WHAT TO DO?
I'm bored.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Leo symbolizes the consciousness wherein there is strength, creativity and virility, as well as a certain headstrong or willful nature in how you apply yourself in relationship with others.
okay, okay. I'm not a girly-girly type..and yeah. maybe you're right about those. LOL. carry on.
For instance, shariz piza, reading biographical or historical novels about European royalty, daydreaming about the courts of Kings and Queens of modern Europe or ancient times and other grandeurs of the past may bring to your conscious mind memories of previous incarnations when you were at the forefront of things. GULP. Uh, you got me there /swt Daydreaming about european royalty is something I do most of the time.LOL OOPS. Hence to this very day there probably remains within you considerable inner strength along with a strong feeling for behind-the-scenes intrigues as well as a powerful sense of individualism. I'm individualistic??OH MY. These qualities are probably connected with your past life experiences involved -- directly and indirectly -- with leaders of society and government. RARARARARARARARARAR. I wonder if I am to be a leader someday?LOL
You are also likely to have an above-average interest in the great artistic and spiritual accomplishments of the grand cathedrals and great churches of Britain and Europe, as well as the ancient temples of the Mediterranean world
OKAY...WAY FREAKY. How did they know?LOL Statistics?LOL RANDOM!
Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
Sun in Leo:
From your past lifetime in Atlantis and therefore being virtually 100% Atlantean, many contradictory emotions and actions are likely to part of your experience psychologically as well as physically. For instance, there will be periods when everything will apparently flow very harmoniously yet other times when absolutely nothing goes right. Being highly emotional and self-willed, you may often allow your sentiments to run off with your better judgments. Hence the necessity -- like a strong electrical circuit -- of being well grounded, especially in an ideal centered not on what others can do for you but what you can do for them.
"Lord, I am your servant. Let me live a life so balanced that I become a channel through which God's love in the Christ can be manifested to others." This affirmation, shariz piza, along with consistent application of the one ideal of always being patient will be invaluable in helping you resolve life's confusions. For, being to a large extent a Uranian the urges you are likely to feel frequently arise from psychic experiences, and at times bring confusion. Yet you should develop your psi abilities while avoiding the spiritualistic, occultist and the more mediumlike activities.
In fact, being so strongly influenced by your past life in Atlantis and your experience as a soul in the Uranus dimension between lives, when you are good you are VERY good, and when bad, VERY bad! This is one way you manifest the extremism so characteristic of Atlanteans and Uranians (and if either of them, one is usually both).
Your rebellious spirit, especially when others try to dominate you, as well as your relationship challenges are probably rooted in past lives. There, say in the court of the French kings or Roman emperors like Nero, shariz piza, you may have found few answers in religious trends of the day. Nor did you go along with those who happened to be in authority.
In the present, do act constructively on your need to be always guided by a higher will. Following THE higher will of God in the Christ is a blessing that can only make for a glorious opportunity to be a unique channel of service this lifetime. Perhaps in conjunction with the above affirmation also helpful as meditation and spiritual centering aids are yoga and dance. They are likely to be good outlets for your high sensitivities.
QUITE ACCURATE, TO BE HONEST. BUT HEY..WHATEVER.:D
okay, okay. I'm not a girly-girly type..and yeah. maybe you're right about those. LOL. carry on.
For instance, shariz piza, reading biographical or historical novels about European royalty, daydreaming about the courts of Kings and Queens of modern Europe or ancient times and other grandeurs of the past may bring to your conscious mind memories of previous incarnations when you were at the forefront of things. GULP. Uh, you got me there /swt Daydreaming about european royalty is something I do most of the time.LOL OOPS. Hence to this very day there probably remains within you considerable inner strength along with a strong feeling for behind-the-scenes intrigues as well as a powerful sense of individualism. I'm individualistic??OH MY. These qualities are probably connected with your past life experiences involved -- directly and indirectly -- with leaders of society and government. RARARARARARARARARAR. I wonder if I am to be a leader someday?LOL
You are also likely to have an above-average interest in the great artistic and spiritual accomplishments of the grand cathedrals and great churches of Britain and Europe, as well as the ancient temples of the Mediterranean world
OKAY...WAY FREAKY. How did they know?LOL Statistics?LOL RANDOM!
Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
Sun in Leo:
From your past lifetime in Atlantis and therefore being virtually 100% Atlantean, many contradictory emotions and actions are likely to part of your experience psychologically as well as physically. For instance, there will be periods when everything will apparently flow very harmoniously yet other times when absolutely nothing goes right. Being highly emotional and self-willed, you may often allow your sentiments to run off with your better judgments. Hence the necessity -- like a strong electrical circuit -- of being well grounded, especially in an ideal centered not on what others can do for you but what you can do for them.
"Lord, I am your servant. Let me live a life so balanced that I become a channel through which God's love in the Christ can be manifested to others." This affirmation, shariz piza, along with consistent application of the one ideal of always being patient will be invaluable in helping you resolve life's confusions. For, being to a large extent a Uranian the urges you are likely to feel frequently arise from psychic experiences, and at times bring confusion. Yet you should develop your psi abilities while avoiding the spiritualistic, occultist and the more mediumlike activities.
In fact, being so strongly influenced by your past life in Atlantis and your experience as a soul in the Uranus dimension between lives, when you are good you are VERY good, and when bad, VERY bad! This is one way you manifest the extremism so characteristic of Atlanteans and Uranians (and if either of them, one is usually both).
Your rebellious spirit, especially when others try to dominate you, as well as your relationship challenges are probably rooted in past lives. There, say in the court of the French kings or Roman emperors like Nero, shariz piza, you may have found few answers in religious trends of the day. Nor did you go along with those who happened to be in authority.
In the present, do act constructively on your need to be always guided by a higher will. Following THE higher will of God in the Christ is a blessing that can only make for a glorious opportunity to be a unique channel of service this lifetime. Perhaps in conjunction with the above affirmation also helpful as meditation and spiritual centering aids are yoga and dance. They are likely to be good outlets for your high sensitivities.
QUITE ACCURATE, TO BE HONEST. BUT HEY..WHATEVER.:D
Saturday, October 25, 2008
mood: depressed
I failed to go to the halloween party last night. CRAP CRAP CRAP.
I ever so wanted to go but then when I woke up (oh i woke up early, but not quite!) 8 in the morning and found out that nobody's home except for me!MY GOD. They went to Manila and they left me alone with no money! So then I waited for them and I thought they were going home by 4pm but I waited til 8 in the evening and I couldn't go out anymore since mum was telling me dad has a flight to Baguio today so nobody would be able to drop and pick me up. TSK.
DAMN IT.
I missed the party.
No more vacation pictures.
DANG.
One week to go and I'm out of here and still no fun.
I failed to go to the halloween party last night. CRAP CRAP CRAP.
I ever so wanted to go but then when I woke up (oh i woke up early, but not quite!) 8 in the morning and found out that nobody's home except for me!MY GOD. They went to Manila and they left me alone with no money! So then I waited for them and I thought they were going home by 4pm but I waited til 8 in the evening and I couldn't go out anymore since mum was telling me dad has a flight to Baguio today so nobody would be able to drop and pick me up. TSK.
DAMN IT.
I missed the party.
No more vacation pictures.
DANG.
One week to go and I'm out of here and still no fun.
Friday, October 24, 2008
mood: jolly
WEE. Thanks aira-chan for the blog entry. Now I know you can view your grades online.NYAHA. I'm such a loser sometimes.;p I logged in and found out my grades. I didn't have any low scores!WEEEE~ And I thought I was going to flunk SS171,SS197 and SS101.:S I'm quite happy with my grades. LALALALALA. I also got all the subjects I need. You know what, I don't think "random" is used for the system. I got all my subjects and I finished the process the first week CRS was released. HRM.
Here's my grades (fingers crossed I wish I can at least be a CS!):
WEE. Thanks aira-chan for the blog entry. Now I know you can view your grades online.NYAHA. I'm such a loser sometimes.;p I logged in and found out my grades. I didn't have any low scores!WEEEE~ And I thought I was going to flunk SS171,SS197 and SS101.:S I'm quite happy with my grades. LALALALALA. I also got all the subjects I need. You know what, I don't think "random" is used for the system. I got all my subjects and I finished the process the first week CRS was released. HRM.
Here's my grades (fingers crossed I wish I can at least be a CS!):
Communications 2 : 2.00
Economics 141: 1.75
SocSci 171: 2.5
SocSci 197: 2.25
SocSci 101: 2.25
NSTP2: PASS
PolSci 182: 1.25
Third Year Second Semester Schedule:
Economics 141: 1.75
SocSci 171: 2.5
SocSci 197: 2.25
SocSci 101: 2.25
NSTP2: PASS
PolSci 182: 1.25
Third Year Second Semester Schedule:
Tuesday-Thursday:
**Econ 131 10:00 - 12:00
**PolSci 192 1:00 - 2:30
**Econ 198 2:30 - 4:00
Wednesday-Friday:
** SocSci 199 8:30 - 10:00
** PolSci 163 1:00 - 2:30
** Econ 121 2:30 - 4:00
**Econ 131 10:00 - 12:00
**PolSci 192 1:00 - 2:30
**Econ 198 2:30 - 4:00
Wednesday-Friday:
** SocSci 199 8:30 - 10:00
** PolSci 163 1:00 - 2:30
** Econ 121 2:30 - 4:00
I can't believe the break's almost over. :S GRRR. GRRRR.
But, I hope I did okay. Did I do okay last sem? GULP. I hope so.
But, I hope I did okay. Did I do okay last sem? GULP. I hope so.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
mood: tired
note: all illustrations were made using ms paint since i still don't have photoshop.hee.:3
Yesterday and the other day we went to DFA Manila and MOA for a visit. We brought Patis with us on the first day since Mama wanted the little kid to ride the LRT. Haha. We went there quite late already that we had to go back the next day. It was very devastating to know that the Philippine government has gotten worse. The DFA people didn't guide the citizens well. We were all kind of lost. I was kind of lost that day since I did not have enough sleep and I just woke up when we arrived there and I was not in the mood to talk to anyone. And since the nice gay man pulled us to their studio for a nice passport photos and renewal forms and called me ganda and my cousin bunso (which I found very amusing since really, my cousin looks like my mum)
HAHA. We went straight to the basketball court turned passport processing thing and the people didn't know where the line starts and where to sit down so it was all retarded when the lady suddenly said that we had to go to the other side of the court for the processing thing. We went to the other side and the stupid lady blocked my way with her arms and my mum was beginning to walk away without her noticing that I was trapped so I suddenly hissed 
"OH, I'M WITH HER.STUPID WOMAN" with a monotone voice so she let me go.And there was this person who suddenly turned the megaphone on and reminded people, well, not really reminded since they didn't tell anyone from the start.
DFA: paalala lang po sa mga magaapply, huwag niyo pong kalimutan na ipaphotocopy yung mga renewal forms niyo po.
and everyone was like
man: ano ba naman yan hindi naman nila sinabi kanina pa kami nakaupo dito
and thank heavens my mind was working a bit when my mum was about to stand up I grabbed her arm and pulled her back on the chair and told her I'd be the one to photocopy the forms so she could stay in the line and she gave me money to pay for the photocopy and I rushed towards the photocopy section. The people of course were like retarded koreans who wanted to be better off and there were suddenly four lines when the two men said there should only be two lines. Two ladies were talking to me and they were complaining about the people from DFA and my only reply was "ganyan ho talaga ang gobyerno, bulok. umasa pa kayo." and they grew silent. I was kind of pissed off when an old lady with glamorous blings and outfit suddenly tried to sneak out and I saw her so I went to her side and said
me: excuse me. are you aware that the line is not there and you should go to the back of the line where you belong?
old lady: *looks at the line* eh nandito na ako nakapila eh
me: then suit yourself.
And I got my photocopy and left. I was sure she didn't get hers instantly since the man who was managing the photocopying machine was ignoring the SINGITS.
When I got back we were told to drop by Gate 2 the next day at 1pm. So we basically went out of that street and headed for the LRT. Apparently, Pat was still too young to have her pass. She was very amused by the train. We went to bambang to buy my dad's mother her rubber ring for her bed sores. And I was staring blankly at random things that people start to look at me when I unconsciously look at their noses or pimples or blemishes or eyes for a long time. My mind was obviously still not working. And while I was unconsciously staring my mind started to drift of and think about things like
"omg i can't believe i didn't want to go abroad to have a vacation before" or
"omg i'm so stupid for not joining my dad in his flight schools abroad" or
"omg i can't believe i was so nationalistic back when i was younger that i didn't want to step to another state's territory" and so on.
Dad's a pilot and his passport and his visa's never a problem. he's got this multi- thingy visa and he can go wherever he wants for free. Well, of course if he tags me or my mum along, we have to pay for it. But dad's expenses will always be shouldered by his boss. And I found out also that even though dad's such a great pilot, he needs to frequently go to flight schools since latest helicopter models are getting more complicated by the season. Did you know what airplanes are nothing compared to helicopters in terms of driving it? I wonder how rich we probably could be if I allowed my dad to apply for Northwest Airlines back in HS. But no. MONEY CAN'T BUY ANYTHING.
I'D RATHER STARVE TO DEATH KNOWING THAT MY FAMILY'S BY MY SIDE THAN HAVE LOTS OF MONEY WITHOUT THEM BY MY SIDE.
Anyway, when we were done buying that rubber ring, we took the LRT again and I was laughing my head off cause the train was packed with people like sardines in a can and when the train took off I didn't have anything to hold on to and I was pulled back so my left leg was swinging in midair and I was like AAAAAAAAHHHHHH OH NO!
And the people around me were laughing and i was also laughing. We went to MOA afterwards and they left me at netopia.
My head ached like hell after two hours of playing so I went out and even forgot to bring the stuff mum left by my side for me to bring. I walked for a couple of minutes and bought smoothie and sat on one of the benches and again stared randomly at things and people. My tummy hurt. I kept on texting mum where they were and I finally saw them eating merienda at KFC. And I was so sleepy I stared blankly at people and they were all staring back at me weirdly and I was just staring back. And probably hummed. I was really really blank that day.
DAY TWO
Before we went back to DFA, we dropped by Paseo de something near Villamor golf course to buy juice and food to eat while waiting. Pat didn't want to come with us so she was with dad the whole day. I bought toblerone and haagen dazs and mango yogurt and choco popcorn and lay's to eat and tropicana to drink. I ate it right away. But disliked the yogurt. Dad dropped us off infront of Jollibee a few blocks away from DFA and three men suddenly ambushed us and were asking if we were going to apply for passports and ignored them and mum suddenly asked for something and I was walking backwards and my hand accidentally brushed a bypasser's hand and he kept on looking at me and I was getting irritated since he kept on walking but turned his back towards me to look at me and then walk again and doing the same thing for four times already that by the fifth time I shouted at him (since he was already quite far away) ANONG TINITINGINTINGIN MO JAN? GAGO!
And we crossed the street and my mouth couldn't stop talking and i babbled for an hour telling mum about my kulasa friends and scholarships and such. And mum was starting not to listen to me so I said DI KA NA NAMAN NAKIKINIG SAKIN EH and I hushed and we went to the DFA by midday and there were no chairs and I was complaining and it was so stinky there and the gates suddenly opened and when the guard looked at mum's form he asked us if we were both applying and we said
me and ma: kaming dalawa.
guard: wow in chorus ha. pwde na kayong magduet
me: haha.every funny kuya.
and we went to sit down in a partly air conditioned room and i once again kept on babbling out of boredom and the room got filled with people within an hour or so and I was pissed off when one woman went to our row when the DFA people aksed new arrivals to go to the other side of the room (the big room was divided into rows of windows with benches on each window and it was 20+ rooms) and my mum politely asked the woman why was she standing by the end of the bench we were sitting at and she suddenly raised her voice and said
woman: parepareho lang naman yan eh, lahat yan oh windows one to twenty.
and mum grew silent and the lady beside mama suddenly whispered "and taray naman nun"
and I wasn't paying attention and just noticed that ma grew silent so I realized something was going on and so I turned my head to the end of the bench and I couldn't find the rude woman so I told mama
me: ma, nagpapabully ka sa mga tao? wala ka pala eh. inaaway ka di ka marunong lumaban. asan na yung babaeng yun at tatarayan ko rin siya!WALANGYA YUNG BRUHANG YUN. inaaway ka!
ma:....
I kept on looking for that woman in vain. I wanted to raise my voice and tell her it was rude of her to raise her voice on my mother who was politely asking her a question and for answering it rudely and illogically. STUPID WOMAN. SHE SHOULD BURN IN HELL. DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FOLLOW THE RULES.
KAYA WALANG NANGYAYARE SA BANSA NATIN EH. WALA KASING DISIPLINA MGA TAO.TCHE.
I took my form and led my mum since my head was starting to ache from annoyance of the people around us and started to talk in english. People won't respect you if they don't feel intimidated. And that always work. Since when I started to take over and talk to people in english they answered to me politely and thought I was a foreigner. We finished our business in no time and we headed to baclaran to buy doll shoes for my colored jeans.
The ladies there wanted me to try every single top they had since they said I was sexy and was pretty BUT WHATEVER.I RARELY WEAR SEXY CLOTHES.
We went to MOA afterwards since my black chucks are giving up on my so mama bought me a new pair of chucks for school even though I still have my blue chucks which I rarely wear since I find it looking dull and stupid. NYAR.
I looked so wasted and much like a beggar that the salesman asked me "meron na po kayong chucks noon?" as if I never had shoes before. And I was like
"YEAH, DUH."
OHHHHHHHHHH. STUPID PEOPLE. Have I no rights to have chucks? MY GOD. IT'S JUST CONVERSE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. IT'S NOT AS IF I WAS BUYING SHOES MADE OUT OF GOLD OR GLASS SLIPPERS OR SOMETHING. YOU ARE SUCH LAME LOSERS.I don't blame them for my mum's behavior, though. Mum acts like a barbaric, forest creature at times. In public. That whenever I'm with her and she's like that I just want the earth to swallow me whole. EWW. VERY BARBARIC.
ETIQUETTE AND MANNERS, PLEASE. OH MY GOD.LIKE, ACK. WHATEVER.
I saw sugarhouse which is not available in baguio and I bought two kinds of cakes and cookies as well. I dropped by the perfume section by the department store and the salesman sprayed Armani Diamond for women all over me and I was like
me:thanks! I needed that. I'm sweaty all over. I can't believe you guys actually survive here in Manila. It feels like a desert here, really.
and he was telling me about the discount and such and I was telling him how I loved the scent of Armani diamond and I might save money for it. I told him I have DKNY be delicious and victoria's secret pure seduction which I still have to eliminate before buying another set of perfume. I don't really like DKNY. It stinks, you know. Victoria Secret on the other hand is just a body splash and won't last long, plus it's overrated.
I was hurrying to the kid's section when three other salesmen ambushed me and wouldn't let me go without them spraying Bvulgari, Escada and Lacoste on my arms and I was like
"Oh please, that's too much! I already have Armani all over me, the scents will get mixed up!" And I was trying to be nice and pretended that I was interested in buying their products and told them "Well, it smells nice. I'll think about it. But for now I have to go. Thank you." And when I finally saw my mum I was like
"OMG MA. Nakakuha pa ako ng free armani perfume all over me and more!"
But no..it wasn't so great. with all those perfumes I was feeling dizzy. Nausea coming through. UH OH. haha
note: all illustrations were made using ms paint since i still don't have photoshop.hee.:3
Yesterday and the other day we went to DFA Manila and MOA for a visit. We brought Patis with us on the first day since Mama wanted the little kid to ride the LRT. Haha. We went there quite late already that we had to go back the next day. It was very devastating to know that the Philippine government has gotten worse. The DFA people didn't guide the citizens well. We were all kind of lost. I was kind of lost that day since I did not have enough sleep and I just woke up when we arrived there and I was not in the mood to talk to anyone. And since the nice gay man pulled us to their studio for a nice passport photos and renewal forms and called me ganda and my cousin bunso (which I found very amusing since really, my cousin looks like my mum)
HAHA. We went straight to the basketball court turned passport processing thing and the people didn't know where the line starts and where to sit down so it was all retarded when the lady suddenly said that we had to go to the other side of the court for the processing thing. We went to the other side and the stupid lady blocked my way with her arms and my mum was beginning to walk away without her noticing that I was trapped so I suddenly hissed "OH, I'M WITH HER.STUPID WOMAN" with a monotone voice so she let me go.And there was this person who suddenly turned the megaphone on and reminded people, well, not really reminded since they didn't tell anyone from the start. DFA: paalala lang po sa mga magaapply, huwag niyo pong kalimutan na ipaphotocopy yung mga renewal forms niyo po.
and everyone was like
man: ano ba naman yan hindi naman nila sinabi kanina pa kami nakaupo dito
and thank heavens my mind was working a bit when my mum was about to stand up I grabbed her arm and pulled her back on the chair and told her I'd be the one to photocopy the forms so she could stay in the line and she gave me money to pay for the photocopy and I rushed towards the photocopy section. The people of course were like retarded koreans who wanted to be better off and there were suddenly four lines when the two men said there should only be two lines. Two ladies were talking to me and they were complaining about the people from DFA and my only reply was "ganyan ho talaga ang gobyerno, bulok. umasa pa kayo." and they grew silent. I was kind of pissed off when an old lady with glamorous blings and outfit suddenly tried to sneak out and I saw her so I went to her side and said
me: excuse me. are you aware that the line is not there and you should go to the back of the line where you belong?
old lady: *looks at the line* eh nandito na ako nakapila eh
me: then suit yourself.
And I got my photocopy and left. I was sure she didn't get hers instantly since the man who was managing the photocopying machine was ignoring the SINGITS.
When I got back we were told to drop by Gate 2 the next day at 1pm. So we basically went out of that street and headed for the LRT. Apparently, Pat was still too young to have her pass. She was very amused by the train. We went to bambang to buy my dad's mother her rubber ring for her bed sores. And I was staring blankly at random things that people start to look at me when I unconsciously look at their noses or pimples or blemishes or eyes for a long time. My mind was obviously still not working. And while I was unconsciously staring my mind started to drift of and think about things like
"omg i can't believe i didn't want to go abroad to have a vacation before" or
"omg i'm so stupid for not joining my dad in his flight schools abroad" or
"omg i can't believe i was so nationalistic back when i was younger that i didn't want to step to another state's territory" and so on.
Dad's a pilot and his passport and his visa's never a problem. he's got this multi- thingy visa and he can go wherever he wants for free. Well, of course if he tags me or my mum along, we have to pay for it. But dad's expenses will always be shouldered by his boss. And I found out also that even though dad's such a great pilot, he needs to frequently go to flight schools since latest helicopter models are getting more complicated by the season. Did you know what airplanes are nothing compared to helicopters in terms of driving it? I wonder how rich we probably could be if I allowed my dad to apply for Northwest Airlines back in HS. But no. MONEY CAN'T BUY ANYTHING.
I'D RATHER STARVE TO DEATH KNOWING THAT MY FAMILY'S BY MY SIDE THAN HAVE LOTS OF MONEY WITHOUT THEM BY MY SIDE.
Anyway, when we were done buying that rubber ring, we took the LRT again and I was laughing my head off cause the train was packed with people like sardines in a can and when the train took off I didn't have anything to hold on to and I was pulled back so my left leg was swinging in midair and I was like AAAAAAAAHHHHHH OH NO!
And the people around me were laughing and i was also laughing. We went to MOA afterwards and they left me at netopia.
My head ached like hell after two hours of playing so I went out and even forgot to bring the stuff mum left by my side for me to bring. I walked for a couple of minutes and bought smoothie and sat on one of the benches and again stared randomly at things and people. My tummy hurt. I kept on texting mum where they were and I finally saw them eating merienda at KFC. And I was so sleepy I stared blankly at people and they were all staring back at me weirdly and I was just staring back. And probably hummed. I was really really blank that day.
DAY TWO
Before we went back to DFA, we dropped by Paseo de something near Villamor golf course to buy juice and food to eat while waiting. Pat didn't want to come with us so she was with dad the whole day. I bought toblerone and haagen dazs and mango yogurt and choco popcorn and lay's to eat and tropicana to drink. I ate it right away. But disliked the yogurt. Dad dropped us off infront of Jollibee a few blocks away from DFA and three men suddenly ambushed us and were asking if we were going to apply for passports and ignored them and mum suddenly asked for something and I was walking backwards and my hand accidentally brushed a bypasser's hand and he kept on looking at me and I was getting irritated since he kept on walking but turned his back towards me to look at me and then walk again and doing the same thing for four times already that by the fifth time I shouted at him (since he was already quite far away) ANONG TINITINGINTINGIN MO JAN? GAGO!
And we crossed the street and my mouth couldn't stop talking and i babbled for an hour telling mum about my kulasa friends and scholarships and such. And mum was starting not to listen to me so I said DI KA NA NAMAN NAKIKINIG SAKIN EH and I hushed and we went to the DFA by midday and there were no chairs and I was complaining and it was so stinky there and the gates suddenly opened and when the guard looked at mum's form he asked us if we were both applying and we said
me and ma: kaming dalawa.
guard: wow in chorus ha. pwde na kayong magduet
me: haha.every funny kuya.
and we went to sit down in a partly air conditioned room and i once again kept on babbling out of boredom and the room got filled with people within an hour or so and I was pissed off when one woman went to our row when the DFA people aksed new arrivals to go to the other side of the room (the big room was divided into rows of windows with benches on each window and it was 20+ rooms) and my mum politely asked the woman why was she standing by the end of the bench we were sitting at and she suddenly raised her voice and said
woman: parepareho lang naman yan eh, lahat yan oh windows one to twenty.
and mum grew silent and the lady beside mama suddenly whispered "and taray naman nun"
and I wasn't paying attention and just noticed that ma grew silent so I realized something was going on and so I turned my head to the end of the bench and I couldn't find the rude woman so I told mama
me: ma, nagpapabully ka sa mga tao? wala ka pala eh. inaaway ka di ka marunong lumaban. asan na yung babaeng yun at tatarayan ko rin siya!WALANGYA YUNG BRUHANG YUN. inaaway ka!
ma:....
I kept on looking for that woman in vain. I wanted to raise my voice and tell her it was rude of her to raise her voice on my mother who was politely asking her a question and for answering it rudely and illogically. STUPID WOMAN. SHE SHOULD BURN IN HELL. DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FOLLOW THE RULES.
KAYA WALANG NANGYAYARE SA BANSA NATIN EH. WALA KASING DISIPLINA MGA TAO.TCHE.
I took my form and led my mum since my head was starting to ache from annoyance of the people around us and started to talk in english. People won't respect you if they don't feel intimidated. And that always work. Since when I started to take over and talk to people in english they answered to me politely and thought I was a foreigner. We finished our business in no time and we headed to baclaran to buy doll shoes for my colored jeans.
The ladies there wanted me to try every single top they had since they said I was sexy and was pretty BUT WHATEVER.I RARELY WEAR SEXY CLOTHES.
We went to MOA afterwards since my black chucks are giving up on my so mama bought me a new pair of chucks for school even though I still have my blue chucks which I rarely wear since I find it looking dull and stupid. NYAR.
I looked so wasted and much like a beggar that the salesman asked me "meron na po kayong chucks noon?" as if I never had shoes before. And I was like
"YEAH, DUH."
OHHHHHHHHHH. STUPID PEOPLE. Have I no rights to have chucks? MY GOD. IT'S JUST CONVERSE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. IT'S NOT AS IF I WAS BUYING SHOES MADE OUT OF GOLD OR GLASS SLIPPERS OR SOMETHING. YOU ARE SUCH LAME LOSERS.I don't blame them for my mum's behavior, though. Mum acts like a barbaric, forest creature at times. In public. That whenever I'm with her and she's like that I just want the earth to swallow me whole. EWW. VERY BARBARIC.
ETIQUETTE AND MANNERS, PLEASE. OH MY GOD.LIKE, ACK. WHATEVER.
I saw sugarhouse which is not available in baguio and I bought two kinds of cakes and cookies as well. I dropped by the perfume section by the department store and the salesman sprayed Armani Diamond for women all over me and I was like
me:thanks! I needed that. I'm sweaty all over. I can't believe you guys actually survive here in Manila. It feels like a desert here, really.
and he was telling me about the discount and such and I was telling him how I loved the scent of Armani diamond and I might save money for it. I told him I have DKNY be delicious and victoria's secret pure seduction which I still have to eliminate before buying another set of perfume. I don't really like DKNY. It stinks, you know. Victoria Secret on the other hand is just a body splash and won't last long, plus it's overrated.
I was hurrying to the kid's section when three other salesmen ambushed me and wouldn't let me go without them spraying Bvulgari, Escada and Lacoste on my arms and I was like
"Oh please, that's too much! I already have Armani all over me, the scents will get mixed up!" And I was trying to be nice and pretended that I was interested in buying their products and told them "Well, it smells nice. I'll think about it. But for now I have to go. Thank you." And when I finally saw my mum I was like
"OMG MA. Nakakuha pa ako ng free armani perfume all over me and more!"
But no..it wasn't so great. with all those perfumes I was feeling dizzy. Nausea coming through. UH OH. haha
Sunday, October 19, 2008
mood: mournful.
Sige, ako na masama ugali.
Ako na walang maitulong sa bahay.
Ako ng tamad.
Ako ng di marunong mag-alaga at magpasensiya ng bata.
Ako na matagal ng dapat pinalaglag.
Ako na matagal ng dapat pinatay.
E bakit kasi binuhay niyo pa ko kung ganon? Kung gusto niyo rin pala akong patay edi patayin ko nalang kaya sarili ko, yung naman pala gusto niyo eh.
Teka lang. di pala pwde, automatic impyerno pala punta ko. Ayoko nun.
Sige magpapakaEMO nalang ako.
Bakit kasi di nalang ako makatulog at hindi na magising pang muli.
Ay teka, iniintay pala ako ni Anton. Di ko siya pwdeng iwan.
Balang araw magsisisi ka sa mga pinagggagagawa at pinagsasasabi mo sakin. Ako pa naging walang kwentang tao. Ni hindi mo manlang nakita lahat ng narating ko. PARANG BALI WALA LAHAT NG PAGOD KO.
I'M NEVER ENOUGH FOR YOU.
DAMN IT.
Sige, ako na masama ugali.
Ako na walang maitulong sa bahay.
Ako ng tamad.
Ako ng di marunong mag-alaga at magpasensiya ng bata.
Ako na matagal ng dapat pinalaglag.
Ako na matagal ng dapat pinatay.
E bakit kasi binuhay niyo pa ko kung ganon? Kung gusto niyo rin pala akong patay edi patayin ko nalang kaya sarili ko, yung naman pala gusto niyo eh.
Teka lang. di pala pwde, automatic impyerno pala punta ko. Ayoko nun.
Sige magpapakaEMO nalang ako.
Bakit kasi di nalang ako makatulog at hindi na magising pang muli.
Ay teka, iniintay pala ako ni Anton. Di ko siya pwdeng iwan.
Balang araw magsisisi ka sa mga pinagggagagawa at pinagsasasabi mo sakin. Ako pa naging walang kwentang tao. Ni hindi mo manlang nakita lahat ng narating ko. PARANG BALI WALA LAHAT NG PAGOD KO.
I'M NEVER ENOUGH FOR YOU.
DAMN IT.
Guess why?
I'll never tell.
OCTOBER 11,2006
FEBRUARY 14, 2008
and of course
OCTOBER 17, 2000 [daphne's birthdate!]
Ohhh gosh. two years already :) HAPPY.
[sabaw, thanks ailo for the word.]
EXCELLENT. [ailo again hihi;p]
PS blog entries for oct11 and 17,2008 next time.
I'll never tell.
OCTOBER 11,2006
FEBRUARY 14, 2008
and of course
OCTOBER 17, 2000 [daphne's birthdate!]
Ohhh gosh. two years already :) HAPPY.
[sabaw, thanks ailo for the word.]
EXCELLENT. [ailo again hihi;p]
PS blog entries for oct11 and 17,2008 next time.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
when i was a little girl, i was always bullied by stupid kids. I would always try to look for someone popular and work my "bunso" charm to help them defend me. (LOL, oh yeah. I love being treated as a shobe haha!) But ever since I started studying here in the University of the Philippines, everything seems to have changed me. My old pals surely know of this. I'm no longer this anime-freak, childish childlike brat who doesn't care about her looks and looks a lot
like Betty-la-Fea.
Patay gutom.
Japanese ng japanese.
Nagppigtails kahit HS na.
Wearing baggy clothes.
Jologs.
Not to mention CHUBBY.
But yeah, the university, although it is a public university, taught me how to enhance my every feature. Now I know how to comb my hair, wear clothes that make me look presentable, wear makeup, behave like a lady and such things. Of course, sometimes I tend to loosen up depending on who I am with. If it's my blocmates I usually go for my tomboyish nature since I don't like talking in straight english and behave like a lady that would make them think that I'm something much more than a typical university student.
And most probably the best thing UP has to offer is teaching people how to be independent. I can actually talk to anyone and I do mean ANYONE now. May it be a lawyer, a doctor, a judge, a businessman, a professor, a shopkeeper, a bypasser, a conductor...you name it. I actually love talking to people from the higher division of the society. And also talking to strangers and not to mention intimidating them with my english.HEEHEE. Although sometimes I admit, even if I hate conios, other people FORCE me to use the language of the conios (yeah, you, YOU IN SPANISH MEANS WOMEN'S GENITALS HAHA.SICKO!) since they can't really understand pure english...sometimes whenever I am doing that I want to slap my own face and hit my head against the wall. EWWWW. CONIO? EWWWW. FUCK.
I'm bold enough to ask random people at random times. I doubt if I am going to be lost if I was alone in the middle of nowhere city. hah. This I think, is something that I've observed lacking of other students of other universities.
Too self-conscious.
Just like back in HS.
I mean, WTF, dress up whatever you want as long as you look human. Nobody will really care. As if the world is revolving around you and they'll stop and listen to every word you say, or even stop to look at you to be mesmerized by your looks.
And no, I mentioned earlier that I now dress up and put make up on but it's not everyday. I make sure that my face isn't breaking out due to make-up and only dress up if necessary. At random times especially when I'm in a hurry, you'll see my messy hair and ripped off from the closet look which is typical of us UPians. haha.
So get your ass of right here and wear whatever you want to wear, do whatever you want.
AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE AND WHAT ARE YOUR FUCKING RIGHTS AND OBLIGATIONS, THEN EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT.
Kicking other loser's ass included!:D
Yeah, you can kick ass if you know how to. Like for example they did something wrong in the first place.
I can mock them or something.
When I use my sharp-tongue, I always tell the truth. I NEVER LIE.
What in the world is the point of lying while saying something rude to people? I'm not stupid, sicko. I know the rules. I don't want to eat my words.
EAT YOUR SHIT YOURSELF.Haha :D
like Betty-la-Fea.
Patay gutom.
Japanese ng japanese.
Nagppigtails kahit HS na.
Wearing baggy clothes.
Jologs.
Not to mention CHUBBY.
But yeah, the university, although it is a public university, taught me how to enhance my every feature. Now I know how to comb my hair, wear clothes that make me look presentable, wear makeup, behave like a lady and such things. Of course, sometimes I tend to loosen up depending on who I am with. If it's my blocmates I usually go for my tomboyish nature since I don't like talking in straight english and behave like a lady that would make them think that I'm something much more than a typical university student.
And most probably the best thing UP has to offer is teaching people how to be independent. I can actually talk to anyone and I do mean ANYONE now. May it be a lawyer, a doctor, a judge, a businessman, a professor, a shopkeeper, a bypasser, a conductor...you name it. I actually love talking to people from the higher division of the society. And also talking to strangers and not to mention intimidating them with my english.HEEHEE. Although sometimes I admit, even if I hate conios, other people FORCE me to use the language of the conios (yeah, you, YOU IN SPANISH MEANS WOMEN'S GENITALS HAHA.SICKO!) since they can't really understand pure english...sometimes whenever I am doing that I want to slap my own face and hit my head against the wall. EWWWW. CONIO? EWWWW. FUCK.
I'm bold enough to ask random people at random times. I doubt if I am going to be lost if I was alone in the middle of nowhere city. hah. This I think, is something that I've observed lacking of other students of other universities.
Too self-conscious.
Just like back in HS.
I mean, WTF, dress up whatever you want as long as you look human. Nobody will really care. As if the world is revolving around you and they'll stop and listen to every word you say, or even stop to look at you to be mesmerized by your looks.
And no, I mentioned earlier that I now dress up and put make up on but it's not everyday. I make sure that my face isn't breaking out due to make-up and only dress up if necessary. At random times especially when I'm in a hurry, you'll see my messy hair and ripped off from the closet look which is typical of us UPians. haha.
So get your ass of right here and wear whatever you want to wear, do whatever you want.
AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE AND WHAT ARE YOUR FUCKING RIGHTS AND OBLIGATIONS, THEN EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT.
Kicking other loser's ass included!:D
Yeah, you can kick ass if you know how to. Like for example they did something wrong in the first place.
I can mock them or something.
When I use my sharp-tongue, I always tell the truth. I NEVER LIE.
What in the world is the point of lying while saying something rude to people? I'm not stupid, sicko. I know the rules. I don't want to eat my words.
EAT YOUR SHIT YOURSELF.Haha :D
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
mood: exhausted
So okay. I basically went to Baguio for nothing. Haha. Not really nothing-nothing. I just found out that I got a line of 9 in International Politics which was the reason why my dad kept on bugging me to review the whole week I was at home and also the reason of my going to Baguio, since I had to take the exam...supposedly. But then I found out that I was exmpted so...gnaaarrrr.. MJ helped me buy flowers in the marketplace, and we bought two boquets of white and red roses and another long stemmed red flowers. So then I hurried back engineer's hill to the bus terminal to buy my ticket that was for the 10:20am ride, and I called my mum and she said I should've bought for more since two boquets only costs 60-80php. >_> So yeah. It was a good thing that MJ was still eating his breakfast at McDo Session and I hurried to meet him so we could buy another two boquets of roses. So when I got back to the bus terminal the my bus ride already left and I was like "oh no oh no oh no..."
and then I was telling the conductor if I could join the next ride and he was asking me why i wasn't there early and I told him the reason why. And he led me to the dispatcher's office and I was telling the old guy "please let me ride the next trip!I have no money left..here I have some coins but I don't think it's enough.." and he said "no it's all right. you may leave with the 10:40am bus ride with no charge" and i was like "really?" and he was like "yes. it's fine." and I was soooo happy and told him "thank you so much!" and I got my ticket and went home safe!:3
That was an awful misadventure I got there. Running out of money, going back and forth from the marketplace to the bus terminal and so, realizing I didn't have an exam to meet, and not to mention being left behind by my bus ride. *sniff*
Oh yeah. before I went home, MJ asked me if I could accompany him to the pirated DVD shops a couple of blocks away from the marketplace. He said his inuyasha cd was the OVA and not of the series and he wanted to exchange the cd to the series. the two sellers wouldn't let him do so and insisted that their boss would get mad blah blah blah. And MJ kept on arguing, although calmly..that I grew impatient and hissed
me: excuse me lang ha, pero hindi kami mageeffort pumunta rito kung nagsisinungaling lang din pala kaibigan ko.
lady: e kasi po hindi po talaga pwde, wala pang buena mano po papagalitan kami
me: we're just going to exchange the cd!
lady: hindi po pwde eh magagalit boss namin
me: hindi niyo naman kasi sinabi na OVA yan at di series eh
lady: e kasi bakit di niyo po pinasubukan?
mj: yun na nga po, sabi ng boss niyo kasi siya yung naabutan ko ditong nagbebenta, sabi niya wag na daw itry at bumalik nalang within 24 hours kung may sira or mali yung cd.
me: e yun naman pala eh! YOUR BOSS gave those words to my friend.
lady: wala nga po siya rito pano po iyon?
me: then call your boss! call her NOW. this very instant!sinasayang niyo kasi oras namin eh!
lady: wala po siyang phone eh..
me: anong walang phone?anong klaseng...-
buy: ipalit mo na nga yung cd para matapos na
me: FINALLY.
so yeah, MJ got a deathnote instead since I told him to watch it.
those stubborn assholes were pissing me off big time.
I don't like it when they're wasting my time for nothing.
MJ said "thank god you're here!kungid..naku. ang tapang mo talaga."
and I was laughing "eh kasi sinasayang nila oras natin eh. saka hayaan mo sila. taasan mo lang boses mo ibibigay din nila gusto mo.haha.:D"
MJ "di naman kasi ako katulad ng mama ko. haha nagmana ako kay papa."
That was fun. I kicked ass verbally.:D
And yeah, I also had a terible fight with Anton a while ago we almost said goodbye to each other but I ended up running back to him.:S And I was apologizing for being a self-centered, selfish, prideful and sharp-tongued bitch. I promise to make up for it on my friend's party.
Sigh.
If I was C.C. I would've conquered the world. But I'm not an immortal and I don't have a gift so I definitely am vulnerable to human's attacks that might lead to my death.
I'm finally beginning to love kicking other people's asses but I still have to limit myself, you know what I mean?
but yeah, i guess so.
WITCHES WILL ALWAYS BE BITCHES.
RARARARARARARARARARAR.:3
So okay. I basically went to Baguio for nothing. Haha. Not really nothing-nothing. I just found out that I got a line of 9 in International Politics which was the reason why my dad kept on bugging me to review the whole week I was at home and also the reason of my going to Baguio, since I had to take the exam...supposedly. But then I found out that I was exmpted so...gnaaarrrr.. MJ helped me buy flowers in the marketplace, and we bought two boquets of white and red roses and another long stemmed red flowers. So then I hurried back engineer's hill to the bus terminal to buy my ticket that was for the 10:20am ride, and I called my mum and she said I should've bought for more since two boquets only costs 60-80php. >_> So yeah. It was a good thing that MJ was still eating his breakfast at McDo Session and I hurried to meet him so we could buy another two boquets of roses. So when I got back to the bus terminal the my bus ride already left and I was like "oh no oh no oh no..."
and then I was telling the conductor if I could join the next ride and he was asking me why i wasn't there early and I told him the reason why. And he led me to the dispatcher's office and I was telling the old guy "please let me ride the next trip!I have no money left..here I have some coins but I don't think it's enough.." and he said "no it's all right. you may leave with the 10:40am bus ride with no charge" and i was like "really?" and he was like "yes. it's fine." and I was soooo happy and told him "thank you so much!" and I got my ticket and went home safe!:3
That was an awful misadventure I got there. Running out of money, going back and forth from the marketplace to the bus terminal and so, realizing I didn't have an exam to meet, and not to mention being left behind by my bus ride. *sniff*
Oh yeah. before I went home, MJ asked me if I could accompany him to the pirated DVD shops a couple of blocks away from the marketplace. He said his inuyasha cd was the OVA and not of the series and he wanted to exchange the cd to the series. the two sellers wouldn't let him do so and insisted that their boss would get mad blah blah blah. And MJ kept on arguing, although calmly..that I grew impatient and hissed
me: excuse me lang ha, pero hindi kami mageeffort pumunta rito kung nagsisinungaling lang din pala kaibigan ko.
lady: e kasi po hindi po talaga pwde, wala pang buena mano po papagalitan kami
me: we're just going to exchange the cd!
lady: hindi po pwde eh magagalit boss namin
me: hindi niyo naman kasi sinabi na OVA yan at di series eh
lady: e kasi bakit di niyo po pinasubukan?
mj: yun na nga po, sabi ng boss niyo kasi siya yung naabutan ko ditong nagbebenta, sabi niya wag na daw itry at bumalik nalang within 24 hours kung may sira or mali yung cd.
me: e yun naman pala eh! YOUR BOSS gave those words to my friend.
lady: wala nga po siya rito pano po iyon?
me: then call your boss! call her NOW. this very instant!sinasayang niyo kasi oras namin eh!
lady: wala po siyang phone eh..
me: anong walang phone?anong klaseng...-
buy: ipalit mo na nga yung cd para matapos na
me: FINALLY.
so yeah, MJ got a deathnote instead since I told him to watch it.
those stubborn assholes were pissing me off big time.
I don't like it when they're wasting my time for nothing.
MJ said "thank god you're here!kungid..naku. ang tapang mo talaga."
and I was laughing "eh kasi sinasayang nila oras natin eh. saka hayaan mo sila. taasan mo lang boses mo ibibigay din nila gusto mo.haha.:D"
MJ "di naman kasi ako katulad ng mama ko. haha nagmana ako kay papa."
That was fun. I kicked ass verbally.:D
And yeah, I also had a terible fight with Anton a while ago we almost said goodbye to each other but I ended up running back to him.:S And I was apologizing for being a self-centered, selfish, prideful and sharp-tongued bitch. I promise to make up for it on my friend's party.
Sigh.
If I was C.C. I would've conquered the world. But I'm not an immortal and I don't have a gift so I definitely am vulnerable to human's attacks that might lead to my death.
I'm finally beginning to love kicking other people's asses but I still have to limit myself, you know what I mean?
but yeah, i guess so.
WITCHES WILL ALWAYS BE BITCHES.
RARARARARARARARARARAR.:3
Sunday, October 12, 2008
mood: daydreaming
And yes. I am not going to dare myself just for fame. I am not so stupid to do that. Fame means nothing for me if it entails fame-the-glamour-way. I'd like to be known as someone who exceeds the minds of others, thank you very much. I just want to see if I am capable of being presentable enough to be chosen. What I mean is, I finally decided to join the cover girl searches soon before my 20th birthday.
You only get to be a teenager once in your life.
And you definitely are just going to live only once.
Why not do the things you dare yourself to do?
And that includes bunjee jumping, sky diving and more daring stuff for me in the future.
Yes,you read that right.
Daredevil Shariz is back.
And loving it.
I've got nothing to lose, only my life ;p nah, I'm just kidding. I'm talking about a magazine cover girl search here. Doesn't need much effort and guts, you know what I mean?
As I've said, I have nothing to lose. Win this thing or lose it, what matters is that I tried.:D
Errrr, correction, I WILL try.
Hahaha.
The candy magazine only offers this opportunity for girls until the age of nineteen. And the final chance for me to do this thing is next year for their July issue (always dedicated to the winner of the search, of course) and "lucky" me for my it's a month ahead of my 20th birthday!
Seventeen and Meg are more flexible as they offer this kind of thing for girls up to the age of 21.
So.
Here goes nothing.:D
I'm definitely bored with life here, y'know.
And yes. I am not going to dare myself just for fame. I am not so stupid to do that. Fame means nothing for me if it entails fame-the-glamour-way. I'd like to be known as someone who exceeds the minds of others, thank you very much. I just want to see if I am capable of being presentable enough to be chosen. What I mean is, I finally decided to join the cover girl searches soon before my 20th birthday.
You only get to be a teenager once in your life.
And you definitely are just going to live only once.
Why not do the things you dare yourself to do?
And that includes bunjee jumping, sky diving and more daring stuff for me in the future.
Yes,you read that right.
Daredevil Shariz is back.
And loving it.
I've got nothing to lose, only my life ;p nah, I'm just kidding. I'm talking about a magazine cover girl search here. Doesn't need much effort and guts, you know what I mean?
As I've said, I have nothing to lose. Win this thing or lose it, what matters is that I tried.:D
Errrr, correction, I WILL try.
Hahaha.
The candy magazine only offers this opportunity for girls until the age of nineteen. And the final chance for me to do this thing is next year for their July issue (always dedicated to the winner of the search, of course) and "lucky" me for my it's a month ahead of my 20th birthday!
Seventeen and Meg are more flexible as they offer this kind of thing for girls up to the age of 21.
So.
Here goes nothing.:D
I'm definitely bored with life here, y'know.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
mood: laughing my head off
Hahaha. We went to SM a while ago and I found this purdee pink and brown dress I wanted to buy but then mum said to buy in this thursday since I still don't know what my friend's party's them will be. And now I knew it's red-casual. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
MOTHER FUCKER, I have no reason to buy that purdee dress anymore. SNIFF. NO!
Anyway, I don't know. I don't really care what I'll be wearing. I'm tripping on wearing a dress, really. Im VERY FOND OF DRESSES.
Plus, Anton likes it when I dress up like a purdee little pwincesh. I rarely act like a lady-lady around the campus so it's not everyday that people in baguio could see me sissy, you know. HAHA.:D besides, everyone knows I love tripping on things and I don't fucking care about what I wear. As long as I'm comfortable, bring it on.:D
So mum said she's gonna buy a red pants and white blouse for me to use on my friend's birthday. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
First day was fun. I missed my room and everything LAGUNA.
Minus the fact that I couldn't sleep last night since it's too hot. GYAH.MY GOD. MANILA FEELS LIKE HELL.
So there.:D
Hahaha. We went to SM a while ago and I found this purdee pink and brown dress I wanted to buy but then mum said to buy in this thursday since I still don't know what my friend's party's them will be. And now I knew it's red-casual. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
MOTHER FUCKER, I have no reason to buy that purdee dress anymore. SNIFF. NO!
Anyway, I don't know. I don't really care what I'll be wearing. I'm tripping on wearing a dress, really. Im VERY FOND OF DRESSES.
Plus, Anton likes it when I dress up like a purdee little pwincesh. I rarely act like a lady-lady around the campus so it's not everyday that people in baguio could see me sissy, you know. HAHA.:D besides, everyone knows I love tripping on things and I don't fucking care about what I wear. As long as I'm comfortable, bring it on.:D
So mum said she's gonna buy a red pants and white blouse for me to use on my friend's birthday. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
First day was fun. I missed my room and everything LAGUNA.
Minus the fact that I couldn't sleep last night since it's too hot. GYAH.MY GOD. MANILA FEELS LIKE HELL.
So there.:D
Monday, October 06, 2008
1. Habang nagququiz.
2. Kapag dinismiss na ng prof.
3. Habang nag aaral
4.Pagtanggap ng long exam.
5.Pag smart kang sumagot...
6.Pag nasuspend ang pasok dahil sa bagyo
7.Dinibdib mo ang pag-aaral tapos wala naman palang quiz
8.Pag lumabas na mga results ng grades...
9.pag nanghihinayang ka sa one point para pumasa
10.pag binati ka ng crush mo. :))
11. pag gusto mong maghiganti sa kaaway mo.. :))
12 pag magcucut ka ng class.
13.pag kausap mo ang crush mo.
14. tuwing enlistment. (CRS!!!) ;p
15.pag di mo alam paano sagutan yung quiz.
16. pag naghihintay ng jeep
17.la ka na maintindihan sa pinagsasabi ng prof..
18.pag umaasang magbibigay ng plus..
19.ginagawa para pumasa ka..
20.pag feeling mo binigay mo na best mo pero di pa rin sapat.
21. pag nabrain-freeze nung uminom ng shake.
22.pagkatapos ng exam..
23.pagkatapos ng lunch.
24. pag tinatamad mag-aral
25.pag uwian na
Friday, October 03, 2008
mood: i died.
HAHAHA.kidding.
UH-OH.
I forgot to wake up after I turned off my alarm so I didn't go to my last class today. O_O NYAR.Sorry *sniff*
Oh dad agreed that I am to go home on the 6th (noon time) and I'll just come back to Baguio on the 13th. Hoepfully, I'll use dad's chopper to go home on the 14th if and only if he's going to have a flight on that day. *cross fingers* I HOPE SO!I'm not used to the eight hour bus ride anymore! Such a waste of time, I mean, if you ride the helicopter you'll arrive at NAIA within an hour!:S NYAAAAAAR. Besides, I forgot to save my videos the time I remembered to bring my cam home and the flight and the view and all..:( I promised to post it once I have 24.7 net but then I forgot to save it.Oh dear. :S
Anyway, YAY YAY YAY I'm finally going to marry one of the girls in Harvest Moon!I can't choose, though..Can I just marry them all?:D All of them have red hearts already XD
MARRY THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sniff.
I want to go home.XD
Oh, Keren told me she wants to go to EK insted of ATC. Andreo also wants to go to EK and I told him he could join us since my bestfriend will also be coming (right naj???COME ON!!I MISS THE ANCHORS AWAY AND THE JUNGLE LOG JAM...BESIDES, I KNOW YOU'LL LOVE TO SEE ANTON HIDE LIKE A LITTLE SISSY GIRL WHILE RIDING THE ANCHORS AWAY RIGHT??RIGHT???*evil grin*) HEEEEE. Oh and you can bring a pig with you :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
So that's me and my fiance. me and my bestfriend. my fiance and his bestfriend. my bestfriend and her friend. and my little sister, also naj's little sister. HEEEEE
FUN FUN FUN FUN
ANCHORS AWAY HERE I COME.
AGAIN. AND AGAIN. FOR THE Nth time >_> nyak.
p.s. I wonder why I kept on dreaming about David and his sister for days, though..hrm.
HAHAHA.kidding.
UH-OH.
I forgot to wake up after I turned off my alarm so I didn't go to my last class today. O_O NYAR.Sorry *sniff*
Oh dad agreed that I am to go home on the 6th (noon time) and I'll just come back to Baguio on the 13th. Hoepfully, I'll use dad's chopper to go home on the 14th if and only if he's going to have a flight on that day. *cross fingers* I HOPE SO!I'm not used to the eight hour bus ride anymore! Such a waste of time, I mean, if you ride the helicopter you'll arrive at NAIA within an hour!:S NYAAAAAAR. Besides, I forgot to save my videos the time I remembered to bring my cam home and the flight and the view and all..:( I promised to post it once I have 24.7 net but then I forgot to save it.Oh dear. :S
Anyway, YAY YAY YAY I'm finally going to marry one of the girls in Harvest Moon!I can't choose, though..Can I just marry them all?:D All of them have red hearts already XD
MARRY THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sniff.
I want to go home.XD
Oh, Keren told me she wants to go to EK insted of ATC. Andreo also wants to go to EK and I told him he could join us since my bestfriend will also be coming (right naj???COME ON!!I MISS THE ANCHORS AWAY AND THE JUNGLE LOG JAM...BESIDES, I KNOW YOU'LL LOVE TO SEE ANTON HIDE LIKE A LITTLE SISSY GIRL WHILE RIDING THE ANCHORS AWAY RIGHT??RIGHT???*evil grin*) HEEEEE. Oh and you can bring a pig with you :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
So that's me and my fiance. me and my bestfriend. my fiance and his bestfriend. my bestfriend and her friend. and my little sister, also naj's little sister. HEEEEE
FUN FUN FUN FUN
ANCHORS AWAY HERE I COME.
AGAIN. AND AGAIN. FOR THE Nth time >_> nyak.
p.s. I wonder why I kept on dreaming about David and his sister for days, though..hrm.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
mood: melancholic
When I was younger, my dad used to go to places far from our home for a long period of time. When he was still in the military, he'd be in Zamboanga or somewhere really far, so when I was a baby my mum would bring my dad's shirt to my side every time I sleep. I don't think there's a scientific explanation to it and my being close to my dad but, only the fact that as a baby, I grew to know my dad's scent. I saw pictures of me as a couple of months old baby sleeping on top of my dad's chest, and dad said I liked it very much :) It was weird that my mum was always on my side and my dad's almost always not around but we've always been partners ever since I learned how to speak.I never wanted a sibling since I was happy on my own. When dad went out of the service, he was asked to go to the States for his flight school. He went stayed there for months and I remember mum waiting for his call late at night and I was sitting in the living room waiting for my dad's call, too. We were very happy dad was sending us stuff and calling us frequently to keep us company.:)
Sometimes I wish I never grew up and just stayed as their little princess.:( But of course that's just not possible. Being away from them makes me feel empty inside. I never thought that I would feel this way since back in HS I grew to be a rebel and learned how to fight back and curse them and tell them that they sohuld just die and leave me alone and all that drama...sniff. Now that's I'm old enough, I've figured my childishness led me to nowhere. But I'm happy everytime my parents wouls call and text me to ask me how am I doing here, though sometimes I can't just tolerate their nagging, especially Mum's voice.
I just remember this cause my mum suddenly asked me to buy a big can of swiss miss for my little cousin whom they've taken from my mum's younger brother and who randomly looks exactly like my mother (i find it funny as well, especially when patricia tells everyone that she looks like me, and she's just three years old)..It was weird that my cousin would want to look like me and gets shy when I'm around, but it's sooo very cute.:3 So anyway, I think my mum and dad are getting lonely there in our place since there's not kid around and so they "borrowed" Patricia from my Tito. Well, there's no point of getting angry since my tito has ten kids and they haven't enough money to support their kids. Dad said Patricia would stay there until she gets fat (UH, YEAH...THANK YOU PATRICIA FOR YOUR PRESENCE. I'M TIRED OF THEM SHOVING FOOD TO MY MOUTH AND FORCE ME TO BE FAT). Whenever my dad's here in Baguio and he calls my mum, he would ask my mum to give the phone to patricia, or patis since that's what everyone in the clan calls her, and he would talk to her and teach her how to use the phone. LOL, since all of them don't know how to use the phone and just listen on the other end of the line and never talk to the caller!HAHA.
So anyway, while I was watching my dad talk to patis, it felt like i wasn't existing in this world, and that nobody can actually see me. It felt like I went to the past to see my dad talking to little Shariz on the phone that it melts my heart everytime and I just want to cry.:( I somehow felt lonely and happy at the same time, to see myself all grown up and see my parents taking care of another little girl to keep them from being lonely. Sigh. When I graduted from high school, my dad went to the side of the bed one night and talked to me. He said he wanted to have grandchildren so mum and dad would have something to take care of and play with when they get older. I told him marriage was something that I never thought of..but I guess everything changes. Someday I want to get married and have kids, and bring them to my parents for them to see and take care of. I don't want them lonely. I just don't want them to be sad. Please don't be sad that I've grown up.:( I could stay as a little girl forever for you, if the world would just permit me to do so.:(
It makes me want to cry whenever they tell other people how I grabbed pencils, crayons or whatever and drew random things on the wall when I was a toddler. How I managed not to cry and be still when I fell down the creek and got my forehead bleeding like hell and mum crying and told me "Wag kang mamatay, anak ko!" and me replying "hindi naman ako mamamatay eh, sugat lang naman yan". And how I started to read and write at the age of three. And
There's nothing I can do about it, though. I just want to help them take care of patis. Tomorrow I'll buy what my mum asked of me to buy.
I'm ready to be a big sister now.
You can adopt her, if you want.
I'm getting old, I can't be your little princess for too long..:(
I'm sorry...
When I was younger, my dad used to go to places far from our home for a long period of time. When he was still in the military, he'd be in Zamboanga or somewhere really far, so when I was a baby my mum would bring my dad's shirt to my side every time I sleep. I don't think there's a scientific explanation to it and my being close to my dad but, only the fact that as a baby, I grew to know my dad's scent. I saw pictures of me as a couple of months old baby sleeping on top of my dad's chest, and dad said I liked it very much :) It was weird that my mum was always on my side and my dad's almost always not around but we've always been partners ever since I learned how to speak.I never wanted a sibling since I was happy on my own. When dad went out of the service, he was asked to go to the States for his flight school. He went stayed there for months and I remember mum waiting for his call late at night and I was sitting in the living room waiting for my dad's call, too. We were very happy dad was sending us stuff and calling us frequently to keep us company.:)
Sometimes I wish I never grew up and just stayed as their little princess.:( But of course that's just not possible. Being away from them makes me feel empty inside. I never thought that I would feel this way since back in HS I grew to be a rebel and learned how to fight back and curse them and tell them that they sohuld just die and leave me alone and all that drama...sniff. Now that's I'm old enough, I've figured my childishness led me to nowhere. But I'm happy everytime my parents wouls call and text me to ask me how am I doing here, though sometimes I can't just tolerate their nagging, especially Mum's voice.
I just remember this cause my mum suddenly asked me to buy a big can of swiss miss for my little cousin whom they've taken from my mum's younger brother and who randomly looks exactly like my mother (i find it funny as well, especially when patricia tells everyone that she looks like me, and she's just three years old)..It was weird that my cousin would want to look like me and gets shy when I'm around, but it's sooo very cute.:3 So anyway, I think my mum and dad are getting lonely there in our place since there's not kid around and so they "borrowed" Patricia from my Tito. Well, there's no point of getting angry since my tito has ten kids and they haven't enough money to support their kids. Dad said Patricia would stay there until she gets fat (UH, YEAH...THANK YOU PATRICIA FOR YOUR PRESENCE. I'M TIRED OF THEM SHOVING FOOD TO MY MOUTH AND FORCE ME TO BE FAT). Whenever my dad's here in Baguio and he calls my mum, he would ask my mum to give the phone to patricia, or patis since that's what everyone in the clan calls her, and he would talk to her and teach her how to use the phone. LOL, since all of them don't know how to use the phone and just listen on the other end of the line and never talk to the caller!HAHA.
So anyway, while I was watching my dad talk to patis, it felt like i wasn't existing in this world, and that nobody can actually see me. It felt like I went to the past to see my dad talking to little Shariz on the phone that it melts my heart everytime and I just want to cry.:( I somehow felt lonely and happy at the same time, to see myself all grown up and see my parents taking care of another little girl to keep them from being lonely. Sigh. When I graduted from high school, my dad went to the side of the bed one night and talked to me. He said he wanted to have grandchildren so mum and dad would have something to take care of and play with when they get older. I told him marriage was something that I never thought of..but I guess everything changes. Someday I want to get married and have kids, and bring them to my parents for them to see and take care of. I don't want them lonely. I just don't want them to be sad. Please don't be sad that I've grown up.:( I could stay as a little girl forever for you, if the world would just permit me to do so.:(
It makes me want to cry whenever they tell other people how I grabbed pencils, crayons or whatever and drew random things on the wall when I was a toddler. How I managed not to cry and be still when I fell down the creek and got my forehead bleeding like hell and mum crying and told me "Wag kang mamatay, anak ko!" and me replying "hindi naman ako mamamatay eh, sugat lang naman yan". And how I started to read and write at the age of three. And
There's nothing I can do about it, though. I just want to help them take care of patis. Tomorrow I'll buy what my mum asked of me to buy.
I'm ready to be a big sister now.
You can adopt her, if you want.
I'm getting old, I can't be your little princess for too long..:(
I'm sorry...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
mood: tired
OMIGOD. I'm so happy that paper in international politics is OVER! I don't like it.>_> NYAR. I miss Ma'am Sasa. :S
Anyway, since I'm so desperately looking for code geass costume, I ended up offering my service to whoever wants to hire me. Apparently, someone is looking for a girl to cosplay as Reimu Kakumei (picture above) and when he asked for my general info, he said I passed!:3 But then he said he got traumatized by the fact that a lot of cosplayers backed out due to stage fright.
NYAR.
You talking abot me? Hah. The geeky side of me is not afraid of anyone.LOL
I somehow got a job..but then I really have to think about it since this means that my debut is coming soon and my character is something I don't lurv. :S
SNIFF.
Please, God, send someone who can make the perfect C.C. costume for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. Pao, this is absolute, mind breaking torture. I need to see C.C. again omigoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood I'm getting obsessed. It's just so sad that she turned to be such a gentle little girl. I like her bitchy and rararararrararar!:3
Sigh.
So much about cosplaying.
Sir Toto said we are to have a final exam on Oct 14.
NYAR.SNIFF. I want to go home on the 6th. :S
And yeah. I am bored with this peaceful life.
Bring in the war, anyone?
OMIGOD. I'm so happy that paper in international politics is OVER! I don't like it.>_> NYAR. I miss Ma'am Sasa. :S
Anyway, since I'm so desperately looking for code geass costume, I ended up offering my service to whoever wants to hire me. Apparently, someone is looking for a girl to cosplay as Reimu Kakumei (picture above) and when he asked for my general info, he said I passed!:3 But then he said he got traumatized by the fact that a lot of cosplayers backed out due to stage fright.
NYAR.
You talking abot me? Hah. The geeky side of me is not afraid of anyone.LOL
I somehow got a job..but then I really have to think about it since this means that my debut is coming soon and my character is something I don't lurv. :S
SNIFF.
Please, God, send someone who can make the perfect C.C. costume for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. Pao, this is absolute, mind breaking torture. I need to see C.C. again omigoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood I'm getting obsessed. It's just so sad that she turned to be such a gentle little girl. I like her bitchy and rararararrararar!:3
Sigh.
So much about cosplaying.
Sir Toto said we are to have a final exam on Oct 14.
NYAR.SNIFF. I want to go home on the 6th. :S
And yeah. I am bored with this peaceful life.
Bring in the war, anyone?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
mood: confused
I can't seem to find a good C.C.,Kallen and Lelouch/Zero costume online. I'm desperate to have a seamstress/tailor who can meet my standards and make costumes for me T_________T
That's all.Sniff.
I can't seem to find a good C.C.,Kallen and Lelouch/Zero costume online. I'm desperate to have a seamstress/tailor who can meet my standards and make costumes for me T_________T
That's all.Sniff.